October 31, 2023 P.M. (Halloween)

 So tonight was the cover the night of Halloween where we ended up going trick-or-treating, which was very interesting. This is my 34th year in existence and this is my 32nd time trick-or-treating on this planet. Which is very interesting today I decided I was going to go as purge after I want to go grocery shopping because I decided Dale Gribble wasn’t going to scare off any evil spirits. That being said, I think I did not feel my good job is scaring the living as well. There wasn’t too many spirits walking among us, but you can actually feel them if you put your mind to it that being said, I really weren’t allowed on the Halloween and I even put under my cuticles fake blood to look like I was well…..

This is based on a movie according to my friend Pers. It’s a creepypasta thing it’s the best I can do with a creepypasta until I get to plan a toy to make up for Christmas and now I can really go harping on Christmas now. Because now the Halloween is over as much as it was fun to go wrong location in the dark getting candy and stuff. It’s kind of nice to go rollerskating in him andChristmas and now I can really go harping on Christmas now. Because now Halloween is over as much. Is it always fun to go wrong like han in the dark getting candy and stuff. It’s kind of nice to go rollerskating in the dark looking for Christmas decorations now, which is a lot mom likes affirming the Halloween decorations. That being said, I am very happy to say I got a whole bag of candy, and I was happy enough to say that the make up turn out just nicely for me. I guess I have the face ready for a purge if it were the case. It is a creepypasta thing I will let you know more about Persian Road it is I think it’s more of a creepypasta than anything else I don’t know if it’s a movie, but I have heard about it. But my make up boys based on the creepypasta that also what is the movie? I don’t know where those movie came from this movie idea but anyways, this is basically what it is and I’m very proud to say that I can as a creepypasta Person! That to be said, I’m going to be a purge flight attendant next year, which is the same make up but different deal. But you’re still girl purge by a lot. More 
scary I hope. This was just a dry run.

As I said, I am a Creepypasta fan, especially about siren head. I wish I could be siren head, but I cannot remove my head and put a pole and two sirens on it so that being said, I would rather be a purge and keep my head on where it belongs! So I am very interested in creepypasta and the horror genre, even though I write Romance, I still believe in creepypasta still open in Stephen creepypasta Hoover keeps me sane even be for Halloween comes over after Halloween is long gone. I do believe in creepypasta’s that are believable a sirenhead and such. I could tell him anything about siren head. He was invented during the first world war, and then was elaborate after every war after that, causing it to be more of a Cryptid and more mythical as it came along, it was basically created by people with PTSD. What is exactly what I have so I’m more of a siren head affair, and then anything. If I was given an Amazon gift card I get a sirenhead action figure I’ve seen them before I stalked them  looking for  them on Amazon! I even saw Sirenhead toys in my lifetime when I was in my group home once when I was travelling from one place to another, and to get a friend from my house. That being said, it was very interesting. One siding was at the beginning of the pandemic and the other one at the whatever and this is of the pandemic. That being said, I still find it very interesting that I saw Sirenhead twice and that I have PTSD that’s making the legacy of siren head more believable instead a Drawing, as much as I like Trevor Henderson, he only popular boy siren head with his artwork!

Purge I just looked it up was a horror anthology of films that was made by universal studios. And they have various different masks as I can see but I decided to do the one with my make up. I am watching the make up off after that was a royal pain in my well, my eye! That being said, it would be interesting to watch purge. But some people would get triggered by the whore aspect of the whole thing in the whole idea of a probably being like saw. That being said, I would rather not watch it when someone is around her. But it is very interesting that I chose that now I have to see the movie. It is a creepypasta movie. It’s an anthology of horror, action thrillers, which is very interesting and creepypasta masks.

Only I did not do masks. I did make up instead which was very interesting and I was very happy when I went trick-or-treating I was the 32nd time I went trick-or-treating on this planet. Very much so there’s only one here I missed out of all the years of my life that I did not did not go trick-or-treating, which would’ve been one of my parents were starting to get of failing health. And had to go to a Home themselves. But when I went to my group home, I was able to rediscover Halloween, and trick-or-treating, and I realize what the real idea of Halloween wars is the trick or treat a ghost detector goes into thinking you were someone else. It is very interesting, so I will be doing it again next year for my 33rd year in Canada!   I have literally never have had a bad flu or a cold. I have boys went trick-or-treating. It’s always been the case with me. Because my parents well let’s just say I’ve always had an interest in Stephen King, goosebumps, and other stuff that would send chill up your spine!

As you can see, I also had an influence with the different counterterrorism movies and I saw him with the finger nails. That being said, I did the fingernails as well just squirting, fake blood on my hands where my fingertips are and just go with it it’s gonna be interesting now I just have pink Traverse and it’s kind of interesting to see how long this will ask the pink fingers and I have now. It was very interesting to see where I was interested in looking like this in the first place for Halloween. Not just a scary hostile Spirinspire Road soda have fun I thought it would be a lot more creative to be a girl purge there anything else?

That being said, I am right now. Enjoying a nice can of cream soda which I enjoy very much is interesting taste. It’s one of the crush corporation cans but it’s very interesting. I don’t celebrate these Kansas much is the toll boys that I get from my energy drinks that being said, I still drink Sodas if they are interesting or flavorful, and I got the flavour for one is for myself. And my friend so hopefully we can drink together a canna soda or pop whatever you wanna call it. I hope you have a good Halloween. I had a good Halloween and I will see you tomorrow. I am sad and that Halloween is over but I’m glad that Christmas is coming up pretty soon!   I can’t wait to see what I get for Christmas! :)

October 31, 2023 A.M. (halloween)

 This morning was a very uneventful morning as I was waking up late again again. That being said, I spent most of the morning, either on my iPad or reading a book called the Persians. Which I am very crazy about now in halfway through actually which kind of ticked me off because it’s supposed to be at Sloan next thing you know me with my trip was the high IQ I end up finishing it halfway through in one sitting, causing me to get a little frustrated with myself. Why do I am not going to work with my books when I enjoyed it drives me insane. That is the question that I even asked myself on my offer payment on good razee ass I’m a good rate daughter under my legal name which is Elena Ioana Melanson! I have been sad. Look me up on Amazon. I have four boxes out on Amazon anyways very interesting to see where I have come across ideas for going through the morning routine. I ended up having a cinnamon roll for breakfast with there was sweet nothings there. I was not exactly enthused with having a cinnamon bun for breakfast one day should be for dessert but something in my stomach at least. Today is Halloween, so happy Halloween p.m. bye-bye see what I have said about the a.m..

Well, I ended up grocery shopping with one of the workers are my friends I should say today, which was very interesting. I finally found out with a punk rock fruit is called are used to call the time songWell, I ended up grocery shopping with one of the workers are my friends I should say today, which was very interesting. I finally found out what a punk rock fruit is called are used to call the song club fruit but it’s really called the dragon fruit. That being said, I’m very interested in the food and the different interesting food they have out there! that’s just relation to the first time. I actually annoyed going to grocery shop in my phone again I didn’t have to deal with any of the ignorance   which  really Good! Anyway, try to keep an open mind when you experiences this was actually fun to go about grocery shopping. Where is on Sunday? It was your tour. First one was I preferred to movie actual grocery shopping and I actually enjoy the time doing the deed.Anyway, try to keep an open mind when you experiences this was actually fun to go about grocery shopping. Where is on Sunday? It was your tour. First one was I preferred to do the actual grocery shopping and I actually enjoy the time doing the deed and being able to see the different fruit like the dragon fruit which was very interesting to me. I still call it a punk fruit but at least I know what the scientific name is Florida a dragon fruit dish on your I found  or so. I want to bring it home.

Also, I found myself active international food. What do you call Anna Ohio which was very parts of the world. These are like pretzels I believe when you get a pretzel in my eyes, but they were very important to see the third time in Japan. To be shared. This is very interesting and I was going through my crazy actual grocery store for the first time in my life I was enjoying the grocery shopping hours for the first time grocery shopping. I have to be right atmosphere, and the right different things that come about the door. I would never going to your independent grocer, but I certainly will go into a fresh call anytime of the day if it was open and that was, it’s more enjoyable that way than having to go to hell yeah big box grocery stores, groceries kind of got ignorance written all over them that being said I am looking at the different things from the world. Also, I was able to keep a good conversation going in case something go wrong. But in this case it did not go wrong, but I was able to keep a good conversation about various topics on my friend, who is very interesting on the last to talk about Mauro. It’s about Halloween right now and how are deviate from my original plan to being out a Purge! That is the only time when I wanna mention lab work anyways daddy basically what I’m going to be for Halloween make up because of the idea of spiritual hygiene! That being said, I’m very happy to say that I’m gonna be a girl purge! 

Purchase something from a movie I guess both really interesting, the idea was fair to me if I had a friend if you were to say that and I was ruminating on being purge, but since I am generaqueen female, I just want to be girl purge!

Most of the morning for Rison of reading the purge by name J.m. Cook it is a folio book which I am reading right now that was lent to me. Because everyone knows how important I am I am Jasmine and that I’m interested in ancestry and the address is at risk I am. I am very happy to say that I begrudgingly am halfway through the book which is kind of sad. I ended up saying a bad word when I realize I was like 50% finish the work in one sitting, which kind of ticked me off but that beside the point, I ended up realizing that a good boy should be a slow or otherwise, but you never know when you find that kind of thing, but I just wanted to enjoy the boys slowly but I guess the brakes! That to be said, I kind a wish I could read it slowly over a couple of weeks but I cannot when I find a good book I read it right away and we were quick. But get the storyline on the last is kind of aggravating bro do you want to continue the work or the books and continue but you end up reading it right through to the end and one is sitting in which is kind of aggravating for me because I like to read my books Slowly and digest things but I guess my brain is a heavy metabolizer in the first place and was able to metabolize information right away. So I was begrudgingly trying to update my progress on Goodreads, which was not exactly my phone point about saying I had to move from a beginning of the work to the middle of work within two hours. Yes, I said that two hours I feel like a kid a popular balloon, one they were playing with it rough! 

Who is after the grocery shopping but I guess I’ll reimburse of hers instead of me and grandma I didn’t find the creativity was flowing with Gail gravel so I ended up being girl purge is the same thing as hers, but only with. I am very interested in going around being different creepypasta as I wish I could be sorry Aaron head but I don’t have two-story runs for ahead, so that being said that’s not exactly possible for my case. I always enjoy the creepypasta, including purge if you were to say, and that’s very interesting to see her on my face for the first time and dad and said I will be signing off primarily because of Halloween duties particularly trick-or-treating and other stuff that’s going on now I get this blog in the afternoon, after I was done a mornin full of grocery shopping as you can see and other adventures. Now I have another adventure to do which is the trick-or-treating. Yes and I am 34 years old and I trick-or-treat so who gives a darn!

October 30, 2023 P.M

 It is getting to the time of year tomorrow where the past life flashback and eerie and spiritual things start to happen! That is Halloween, when the vail of the spirit world and the materialistic world fades into oblivion for the night, that being said, it is also time when you should give thanks to your ancestors no matter how asinine to begin with that being said, it is what it is you have to give thanks to your ancestors, no matter how asinining the trades they give you. I might not exactly enjoy having thick thick thick  hair, especially the dark super thick hair that itches  with out lice! That being said it is asining because I hate being short and small for my age! But the one thing I am thank full to my Tibetan ancestors, and Mongolian ancestors is that I am super strong, flexible and has a very very high tolerance to pain, well the physical pain that is……not emotional pain !   I can go one about how the tattoo artist would say that a 200- 400 lbs man wouldn’t handle some of the tattoo piercing that I got.   But I won’t! That being said, I am nature based in my philosophy as well as buddhist! As were my ancestors!

Today I am learning about another set of ancestors that were mongolianish! The persians! My my, I will be reading for weeks learning about the eastern persians and western Tibetan, and what a good time to acknowledge your ancestors then on samhain/ Halloween!    We were going to a friend’s house when I saw something of my ancestors that did not I loved a tattoo parlour, but instead I was able to touch these……tibetan prayer flags! I love these things! Also I had them as a child when my father open his mouth and lit the cat out of the bag, telling me that I was Persian and Tibetan, something I kind of new with my facial features and how strong I am.  But I wanted to do a DNA test, and my father was right on the moon, as well as Siberian, Dagestan, chechen, and other interesting peoples! But to me I identify more with the eastern ancestors of Persia and Tibet!  That is why I got my septum pierced in the first place, ironically at this month.    It is interesting to be born in Europe but be actually Asian to begin with!  No back to Halloween!

Halloween,I am doing my bed laundry a day early because of Halloween, this is because I want nothing to hang over my head except for a Jackolantern or fake cobwebs! I want to be able to go trick or treating even though I am 34, spiritual health has no age in my opinion- especially if it is fun!  I have been trick or treating since the day I became a  Canadian citizen at two years old, more or less 32 of my 34 years of existence! Which I am trying to do a record for the eldest trick or treater and that is no small feet, as some people would think I was completely insane to do so, but then my short and small body gives me an advantage for once in my life! I really have to thank my ancestors for that! Being petit!   I problably will continue until age 40,  I hope if not 10 years senior of 40.  I just love Halloween! Well except on 2018, that was a bad years I was having a month long past life flashback! That will be a long and hard topic to talk about, but it was very interesting nonetheless!   But I was freaking out, my parents or my worker at the time shauna would not know when the next freak out will be!  It was an aggravating month that year! And I did not enjoy Halloween that year!

I will have a blog just for this particular past life and that will not be easy because I will involve me taking for an old blog! Was was called past life pillow book which is mature in most cases but I need to finish telling the story about that life it is kind of embrassassing and that I had to cry at the first entry ….. it brought about a lot of memories I would like to forget from that life! Let’s just say it was in Tibet but it was during the invasion from the west , it is kind of gory at the end! Sh*t! I hated that past life! But I had other past lives in Tibet that I had that we more positive!   That was the month long past life flashback that I wished was a ptsd post traumatic stress disorder flash back, and it ruined Halloween for in 2018!  To be honest that year was hard but refreshing for me in the first place! But would not want to go do it all over again for the simple fact that it was super emotional, and that being said ……. I remember the worker and I had a falling out over fucking martial arts, let’s say that demonized martial arts for some fucked up reason, not knowing that it was a form of mindfulness and anger management!   Had I known what it was for then I would have. Laid off the subject with her! But that was in the past! I know that my parents did not want me to connect with her on Facebook for the longest time because of this sh*t show of a falling out! But when I got to the group home I tried really tried to get back to being friends! Then we went our separate ways!

What I want for this years is not to have a repeat of 2018 where I had such a massive past life flashback that it ruined my Halloween, that being said that time I couldn’t go trick or treating because of a fucking cold I had! That nearly happened this last years as I had the cold from hell that broke most of my ribs, man did that ever hurt! Remember Asians are just humans and like you have the same human features! Including the sensation of pain at some degree! My people pain leave is that would be a 10 to most people, are a mild discomfort and agravation!   I had no idea  about and still don’t know how I did that ! The pain tolerance but that being said I am not an iPad, as I feel emotional pain tenfold!   That is why I am at the group home, just to deal with the emotional and it might take a life time!    It is nice to be ina safe place but I wish it was on better terms the sh*tty emotions!   That being said I am trying to learn the value of a dollar, job skills, life skill, and how to look after my self! That is the good thing!   That and I have friends were ever I turn that helps with the emotional pain!   This Halloween I am hoping to give thanks to my multi cultural ancestors and wear fake blood or make up to scare this living sh*t out of the evil and jealous spirits that I fear most  let me tell you about spiritual hygiene……October 31rst!……

The idea of wearing a costume and make up on Halloween is to fool and scare the evil and demonic spirits that might walk with the dead at this time of year!  Think of the spirit world like Instagram and Facebook……………you have to be very careful and be choosy who you let in to your aura! This no joke like face or Instagram! If you are not careful with the spirit world you can have a demonic attachment or possession! That is like find a creep on line or a predator online and vying into their story when you should be talking to people you know and trust on line! The same with the spiritual world!   If you are not careful bad things can happen!   That is basically why we were costumes on halloween. To block the bad spirits!

These evil spirits can be anything from someone who died of a sudden, accidental or project as to someone who had died of suicide, or someone who had become a demon. One of the two orders of the minute that being said, you have to be very careful when you’re out, roaming the streets on Halloween because if you catch a demon and you’re not wearing a costume you’re  up a creek! National Joe takes like the block Brighton bar for the spirit world. Where is the block button is for the Facebook. If you want to block the demons, or the people who had died suddenly drowned or accidental deaths or suicide,. Those are the ones they gonna be hostile to you.  Which means this is the one night I am not able to acknowledge my adoptive mother has she had died suddenly. This is the one time when she is a hostile spear alarm for family, 10Which means this is the one night I am not able to acknowledge my adoptive mother as she had died suddenly. This is the one time when she is a hostile spirit, unfortunately and I cannot even acknowledge her existence in this world when she was around for my own soul, safety!

That being said, I also enjoy going out in costume because it’s the only time when I am able to be myself without any judgement or “hey r*tard!” or anything that the peanut gallery in my Siam normal days. This is my kind of day where I am able to be who I am in the first place to be where I want to be and to do what I want to do. Within an as well as the confines of the law, and a spiritual law as well. This means that I have to dress and costume, but I can dress and costume however, I want without being judged for who I really am in the first place I unique person. This is why I like Halloween to death. Not just a spiritual aspect, but also because I’m able to express myself willingly without getting bullied or otherwise, ask questions are being called the R word, or anything else for that matter that is aggravating! In other words, you can be yourself without the a holes bothering you! That is a good example too because the a holes are another form of a demon as well. They’re called bully and bullies are not exactly my cup of tea, or my cup of a rockstar, or a monster, or whatever the hell Al’s energy drink I might drank, but that is basically what it is is that it is what it is not fun to be bullied and when you’re on Halloween time, bullying doesn’t exist. Because everyone looks like a goofball sooner or later that night! Where is to look like a goofball with a purpose to help avoid the hostel spirits if you were to say.  That being said, I always was interested in Halloween when I was younger I always loved it. There is something about it. That always got through to me that it was interesting. In a good way. I don’t know why, but I am clairvoyant EMPATH and psychic. That means Halloween is usually my kind of day unless you are a powerful so I can plan is not your kind of day!

Don’t know about Halloween has it his drawing effect to me as if it’s important to me to be creative and to be unique. I can do that 365 days a year! But this is the one day, where I can true be me, at my finest!    I always feel bad when Halloween is over! And it’s November 1rst,   That being said! November 1rst this year will be a complete sh*t because I have to go to the freaking dentist and get a tooth filled and that isn’t my kind of fun to tell you the truth, I hate the dentist, some people  like doctors and then there are people with a similar genetic code = who hate doctors in the first place as if by instinct!   Let’s say that not just other people suffered in ww2, but also the Asians at the hands of doctors! That being said I sleep all dentist or doctor day because it takes sooo much out of me not to punch the racist in the f*cking mouth or nose!

This how much I am looking forward two nov 1, 2023.   So tou have an idea what that blog is going to look like!  

October 30, 2023 A.M

 Let me tell you about what I saw this morning when I just got out of bed, it was exactly ful of glee, but it was exactly full of crap, yes, it was snowing outside and when I got out of my apartment, I saw snow and a ton of it enough for it to piss me off at least. That was exactly my ideal thing for Halloween is snow, but I guess what God has is what God has for us whatever you want to call him or her. That being said, I’m kind of really treated off with the creator right now where are you may call him or her because it’s aggravating that this is happened first thing in the morning I can see it gradually starting in the day and then going from there and I can relax and not have to worry about a ton of snow 1st thing in the morning. It’s not enough for it to be shovelled but enough for me to be angry at it! As you can tell this is October 30 and I did not expect to see this stuff!

Is the stuff that makes you want to slap a higher power in the face because it’s kind of aggravating to go through this situation when you’re dealing with actual snow. This kind of thing is not my cup of tea when I go to wake up in the morning there’s been a couple of other things that I’ve seen that were abominations one waking up but this one takes the cake. One was when the Grim Reaper took my friend and I saw the ambulances the other was when I was actually waking up this morning and saw well the snow abomination, which was kind of Barf inducing if you were to ask me! That being said, I don’t mean anything against religion, but I have something against snow in October when I’m trying to go about certain things like Halloween for example, it’s kind of hard to do anything with this white sh*t on the ground. You would think that was Mount Everest, or something where there was always snow all the time but instead, this is a Canada Where Berkeley at sea level I should not be seeing this stuff.   But then again, I am seeing this stuff free Halloween, which is kind of an aggravating for me. I’m not gonna let it ruin my day, but IBut then again, I am seeing this stuff free Halloween, which is kind of aggravating for me as I’m not gonna let it ruin my day, but I’m certainly gonna let it bug me a little cause I have to entertain my emotions from time to time. That being said, I can’t, I can’t really help but get angry at the thought of a Carlos know first thing in the morning before you wake up and take your pills and then you end up seeing this is kind of like it. I was wondering if my pills were even working or not so I ended up having to distract myself! 

This is what I’ve been up to all morning was making mandalas. I have an app where you can create your own manadalas, which is very easy I created three of these. This is the one that I like the mouse and blue and the yellow. It reminds me of Egypt. I don’t know why, but it just does. The idea of seeing a blue in the Yellow is almost royal. I also believe I put my airport code on our each one of the prongs on the different ends of the actual mandolin, which is my one for the city of Ottawa YOW! What is something I’ve been interested in because I kind of wanna get this tattoo but I’m gonna get an iPhone colour scheme for that. One day and hopefully it’ll be more refined than what I’m seeing here. I always wanted to have my airport code put In a tattoo just for the sake of it. Just to say that I came from Ottawa or the Ottawa area. I’m not gonna tell you exactly where I come from. Except that I was born in Romania that I can tell you because I don’t live there anymore. But that being said, I do enjoy making these mandalas they’re not exactly final mandalas yet, but they are pretty well interesting and they kind of are get me interested in my inner child, which is very important to think about is interesting to see what colours are used glitter colours for this one because you’re very interesting and I enjoy glitter colours a lot. There is an app that I can use glitter colors! That being said, I’ve been doing all this to avoid seeing the snow also…….

I was talking to one of my friends in the US that I talk to regularly. Usually we try to scream about trying to get my ex worry deserves it, which is jail and an orange onesie but beside the point that being said, I enjoy talking to her and we’re trying to do a joint YouTube account where we video call each other and we screen record everything and we talk to each other. I’ve been talking to this person for over 10 years. Very interesting person. She is very much similar to me as in Nerda  geek and weeb but I’m not trying to say that a bad way. Yeah idea of me on powered or a geek or a Weeb does not mean that you have to be bullied all the time there’s gonna be a sign of actually being empowered if you let it be. This is why I had my nose pierced other than my ass Astri is to go, and be who I am express yourself to be a nerd, and a geek, as well as a Weeb is to be who you are initially, which is a fun person with fun vibes and good energy. That’s my idea of being a nerd and a geek. You’re enjoying the fun things in life and only the fun things in life, but also address the bad parts in life as well. That being said, I enjoy being a Geek , and I actually happy to have someone who’s pretty well, the same as me a geek.  You might notice when you read my blog that the actual labels are nerd or geek as well because I am what I am. And I hope to be talking about very interesting things Nurding out with my friend while were video chatting and screen route calling everything and just talking about nerdy things which is very interesting. Another thing that are very interesting in the world. This person has seen me through thick and thin and see me through a lot of things that I would’ve said yes I want to call me PTSD, but did not because of her help and kindness!

What I enjoy talking to her about it is that we have the similar interests and hobbies. Which is very interesting nonetheless were practically like sisters, except there’s a border between us, which is kind of a pain in the ass. That being said, I’ve been also trying to direct my attention to the desperate housewives this show I’ve seen so many times when I was in high school and I love it, still to this day, I watch, desperate housewives because it reminds me of when I used to watch movies with my father although sometimes when he picked movies, they were horrible but anyways, when I picked the movies, they were actually decent enough to watch. And one of them was the series desperate housewives we got hooked on it more than we would on any other drug. That being said, it’s one of my favourite memories is watching desperate housewives with my father and trying to figure out who the psychopath is, if you were to say that. The dressier naughtiness of the show is just great and the intrigue and the funny thing is is good too. What I meant naughtiness I meant as in the psychopaths that walk on Wisteria Lane and they can cause a lot of problems as you can probably guess if you are a psychiatrist or psychologist that you would know that a psychopath can cause a lot of problems if you were to call it that. So it’s very interesting to see and very entertaining to see these different screwballs trying to screw up a neighbourhood but they cannot because of these women. It’s very interesting and I just am always at the edge of my couch now because I live in a group home whereas I was at the edge of my seat when I was at my childhood home, watching this this was an old tv series. I’m at the edge of my couch, watching the desperate. How is wives? I would wish that they would make a Graphicnovel or aNovel about that that would be a lot of interesting reading speaking of reading a meeting because of the actual Sh*tty weather today I decided to read one of my box that I got yesterday was the one that ironically winter survival handbook what is the movie? Very interesting to read one of my friends that is above the border that is in my country that is thought it was just driving manual but it is not is a lot more like to have a choose your clothing and stuff. It’s very interesting and I would recommend it to everyone is my outdoor life! That being said, I also have a few other survival handbooks one about Ebola, which is very interesting and that’s why I got me a read the winter one because it said survival handbook and I said well I’d like to read this because I read the Ebola, one which was not to outdoorsy!   The Ebola book that I read was very interesting. Animal is the one that got me into reading about the different germs. I can tick your body off if you were to say that! From everything from the common cold and COVID-19 I will literally read it. Except for the COVID-19 part if there was any more interesting diseases, I will read about them! Though I wish they would stop bad mouthing the bad as in the animal the bad has nothing to do with very much have the ball that humans are causing our cells like a Covid and stuff. I think it’s more of a human problem than a bat problem. Find humans are a lot dirtier than bats! Take it from me I clean for tattoo money! 

October 30, 2023 early A.M.

 For some odd reason I have a headache that I can’t shake off what happened why is a sneezed a little too quickly, and now I feel a royal headache. I don’t know if it is actually a sinus headache or because I sneezed too quickly and probably bump my brain. I’m probably lucky to be alive right now, but anyways, I was beside the point I’m not exactly real thrilled to wake up at 3 o’clock in the morning yet again because I have a headache this time not because of a PTSD nightmare or anything just because I have this el rauncho headache, which is causing me very much discomfort, but I am too proud to to take a painkiller, because I am too proud of myself to even think about taking a fucking painkiller the lowest things up for babies or if you went through surgery major surgery I should say! Not to be sad, mean painkillers don’t get along with each other because it ends up in a psychedelic battle between my willpower and its affects on me, as well as I do have a high pain tolerance for for some odd reason this fucking headache hurts like a bastard! I am not exactly, enjoying the fact that I had to wake up at 3 o’clock in the morning it wasn’t because of a demonic nightmare or anything it’s just because I couldn’t wake up any other time now because of the headache!

I also had a few interesting things to say I am listening to Otep Shamaya. She’s very good. I’ve been listening to her for the past, so I don’t know how long decade and I’ve been very interested in her music and I also how her music talks about trying to cope with problems by using creativity, similar to the Insane Clown Posse, but not as violent! But still a good message to convey is there early. art my God music is my religion. That’s kind of interesting to say. I even written a couple of under an assumed pen named which was a collection of essays about her music, which I am very proud to say. I hope to say that I don’t be adversity either but unfortunately Amazon or a pen name. I don’t usually do pen names anymore because of my mothers, death to say because to be honest with you, I would rather go by my legal name and make her happy, even though she is invisible to this world, but not until tomorrow that is, and then that’s right tomorrow at samhain halloween, that means a dead walks among us practically if you want to say that if you believe in avail thing, if you don’t, you’re kind of fucked! Because I think that ghosts and spirits, and what not are just as naturally occurring as the big dipper at three or water how can you debunk a big dipper all the tree or the water? For example, you must be very heartless and stuff, so that being said, trying to debunk things that you don’t have any right to debunk is really aggravating in the first place! I have heard a very much a lot of atheists, and they’re hard core and they can really tell you that you’re stupid for believing in certain things which is kind of stupid. I think they’re more ridiculous on believing on things that is based on the idea of

October 24, 2023 P.M.

When I finished work, which I do Twice a week cleaning. I want to use up my gift card that I got at the banquet yesterday.  I ended up getting two books and a pop drink a pop drink meaning like a drink a blue pop which was pretty interesting. I’ve had it before but that’s beside the point I enjoyed the drink of the car. But the books are of what I really wanted because I wanted some fresh boxes. Didn’t have anyone else’s energy on them. Not that that’s a bad thing, but as an empath clairvoyant psychic, it’s kind a hard to read a book when it is used up and already has somebody is energy or so many peoples other energy say but yeah, it is well with me sometimes! Usually I go to the recycling centres to get my box and I get them free and they’re emanating usually other peoples energy but that being said, I actually wanted to get some really synergy free and being able to get some fresh box one was on Madonna. The other was on how to survive winter.   And my friend thought the winter one was about driving, but it was not answer survival guide, which is very interesting to see. But I will be reading that I did not have the big dipper an alarm fortunately which is a very important survival guide my opinion is to have the big dipper.! 

That being said, I am stoked about my dear friend broke, so I’m going to read, and then I’m gonna actually end up reading them, but then we had to go to the grocery store in town, which was not my cup of tea. It was a brand of grocery store that triggers me to no end. I can tell you so many stories about this brand of grocery store. Your independent grocer. What actually happened? It was the fact that during the Covid times I was accused of many things you like spreading disease and stuff and I was also called sand. N***er and and other demeaning names because of my ancestry. As if it was a guy’s actual business with a guy was an actual employee of the group that is the backstory as to why I hate grocery stores I’d rather do her pick up call and pick up and be done with it instead of just having to actually go on the goddamn store! That being said, I didn’t see very much that I want it in the store either, but I will see what I wanted the gift card store. Hell that I wanna wish you a sandbox and I was able to get them. But I wanted to read the books right away I didn’t care about the grocery store at that time. That being said, I didn’t care for it should be saying the brand of it which was your independent grocer.

There are also reasons why I don’t like other reasons why I don’t like the year independent grocer, but that being said, I tried to weasel my way I was saying I’d rather look at my boxes of yada yada yada and stuff like that! But really it’s because I’m afraid of being called that name again because of the nature of my skin even though it is and to the hills right now practically and that is very much Pascal because I haven’t seen you very much sunlight ASAP with my I don’t even have that I wore my sunglasses all summer that being said I did not see very much son this summer, and I will be expecting to see very much summer weather in the winter so I did not really go that dark. So I don’t know why people are making such a big freaking deal about my, DNA! so I just saw I never did enter into a grocery store unless it’s one of the parking lot pick ups that is a lot easier and the people are actually nicer. Because I will literally be called out for my DNA my race and whatever because of my appearance and stuff like that because they don’t like people who are not worried in your independent grocers, which is kind of sad to say, but that was beside the point anyways, when I got back, I hung up my code thank God no one called me the name! And I was able to go about the group home without any problems. My friends were watching a movie when I walked in Cole I sing it was called fall, which is about these girls that were on a 4G tower I think, and that they were actually a trying to survive or trying to get down. I as you can see it was a good movie is pretty gory, but the gorgeous added to the story if you were to say that and you can imagine what I will be wanting later this evening when everyone’s to bed because that’s basically what I like to watch is gory stuff sometimes I’m not a psychopath by all means I feel emotions and empathy and evermore, feelings, and desires, and everything else at normal people feel but I just don’t believe that you have to be classified as something because you watch gory movies I used to watch all of us saw movies when I used to have a bout of nightmares, and it helped my nightmares quite a bit and it was entertaining. The storyline should be more of the issue instead of the mountain make up those being used I think that the amount of make up is just an excuse to some people to avoid the storyline, which is actually pretty Good. 

I would understand if it was a dot onion side that would have been a different story as I do not think that, should actuall suffer for entertainment I don’t believe in these dark onion sites at all on the dark web. That’s just something I don’t believe in I believe it exists but I just don’t believe that you have to watch it when you can be watching actually good things were no actual people are actually hurt in the making of this film. That being said, I have watched many different things on YouTube about the dark web. Let me tell you they are disturbing and they piss me off to know when. That being said, I will be watching for fall, I think that is the name of the movie anyways also, I found out that my Disney+ was reactivated again, which is good so I can stay soon with some comedies and remedies and stuff like that.

Right now I’m watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but will revert to something else instead because it’s very interesting to see what days do you have to offer. I know this sounds like an add but that is a different story. I just like Disney+ so much that I’d rather watch that sometimes Netflix is good for an Asian drama and things like fall, and other things like that. But really is my go to think would be the Disney+ because it has all my favourite stuff on it that I used to watch as a kid and still watch to this day obviously.

Today is two days before the Halloween, which is good Halloween is gonna be coming up on Tuesday and So will be my friend’s baby’s birthday. That being said I envy that kid, for having a Halloween birthday I would love to have a Halloween birthday instead of being on the love month instead, I would’ve been on the Halloween and I would be able to trick-or-treat and then hop on Amazon and go and do my shopping. Let’s just say I am 34 years old on my nerd. We’ve been a geek and I don’t plan on growing up anytime soon, so I still trick-or-treat!  To be honest with you I’d rather be trick-or-treating you know I’m in my 30s understand I’m not trick-or-treating at all and dressing like a complete sl*t and trying to go to the Halloween parties that really don’t leave very much for the imagination or very much to the doctors Books! Let’s just say he shaman, GenZ, yeah, GenZ get so worked up and ends up having a post traumatic stress disorder over a pimple or a wrinkle or something that really is natural and normal wear as my generation versus the millennials were pretty well happy and well adjusted. I don’t like GenZ have hair, beauty, oriented, plastic surgery, oriented and the fact that they have to be perfect. That being said, I am done desk lol I don’t wanna start a rant! 

October 29, 2023 A.M.

 I fell asleep at night, Neville to wake up until about 10:15 in the morning. I wouldn’t believe so and then I was kind of upset for waking up late that wasn’t my intention. My intention was to wake up at 8 AM the usual time I usually get up but yeah and it turned out it was going to be 1015 1020 if you wanna call dad and aggravating for me to get up it’s not like here when I was going to sleep that I was going through surgery except a 7% full part when you wake up instead I was dead really in a Dozie days and I was wondering what was going on with the actual what happened last night? That made me sleep like a baby. What is my question to you and my cell phone for hours who I did I sleep so soundly, and slept halfway through the damn warning car. I remember that it was almost a window of time to take my pills closing so I had to take them right away. Everything with you are Suraj with breakfast, but I remember it wasn’t exactly my idea, but then I ended up being able to relax and read my Web toons, that being said I finish, unfortunately finished the Loving reaper series, which I’m kind of sad a bear. I hope they can still continue on the story about loving reaper, because it was a good story and said I tried other web, expert that one had a car to work that was completely different than I would rather read again!

I also tried a different web, it’s on the app as well as very interesting, but there was one that was not too good regarding the trailer trash, which actually was trash because it was asking me to pay for the rest of the actual stupid, comic series, which was like it annoying for me that I couldn’t finish that one so I found some other ways to subscribe to the kid in the world money. That being said I was a a little cheese off with sad. That being said, I trying other day for the web for comics and resources, reading, loving reaper again! That was such a good comment that I want to be able to read it over and over again I was going to go on Amazon but they don’t have any additions available but it is part of morning routine is usually something I do have been watching cobra Kai for the past 3, years and I really want to see the next and possibly final season, but the writers strike is pissing me off!

Supposedly in the summertime here are the writers strike. That was causing other people that I can watch your favourite TV shows or movies. It was kind of aggravated to tell you the truth that I could be watching season six of cobra Kai right now instead of having to re-wash everything, not that I don’t mind re-watching, but anyways, I found a new activity room and loving reaper by Jenny jinya, which I have meditation, I was a good boss in my dumps. It is a very good books. That being said, I have a new dumps to tell you about as always every week I do a dump a Different to graphicnovel. This one will be included in the regard trailer crash, which was not too good. That being said, I enjoyed a lot of interesting graphicnovel Road this morning before having a head out. I also had a very interesting line Siri is delicious. The lunch was more of a SpaghettiOs soup which was good and is very interesting to eat and and have crackers as well. All that was messing with the bread, butter white bread that is.

Before I was able to get out for my work, I was able to smell something which meant like apple pie and I also noticed some garlic bread something is it in the works is good for dinner I think. That being said, I don’t know what was going on today, except for the fact that I was going to giant Tiger at the store that has the gift card that I was using and I got a few bucks spoiler alert as well as I was able to go and do my work I was able to spend the money without actually bubbling up my days pay of actual cleaning, which was good. That was interesting the size of the rest of the day I am deciding I might or might not. I don’t know about making another web comic about astronomy and the different astronomy signs it go on. This is what I would be very rested and doing as well. I have a psychiatry one which is the one I’m doing now which is about mental health and now I’m we’re going to try to work on something about outer space, which is gonna be a little bit more elaborate than your brain.

That being said this morning was a little more easy-going when I finally got up and was able to read my but the only thing that was aggravating as a fact, loving reaper was finish. And I don’t know if it’s gonna continue that would text me off the most as it was such a cute, but sad web comic. I would rather redial million times instead of the other stuff it’s actually pretty good I would rather, but I have other things that looks interesting but I don’t know what they are until I actually started reading them. But for the morning I will be listening or reading actually, will you which would be the loving reaper. That is something I am not going to stop reading on my Web Toons app, and I also might end up doing another graphicnovel. I have mentioned this to my friend before, it is interesting to see my two interest, bell, but I don’t know if I should do the second one just yet it is interesting to see where the ideas going to play. I don’t even know what I want to use for the actual graphic cover. That being said, I said graphic novel, or web comic a graphic it does not mean gory or smutty.    It means it involves comics.

I couldn’t wait to get back home spoiler alert to get back to my blog and my penpals that I have. I have virtual penpals and still real ones now because the real ones have been having to read and then get carpal tunnel syndrome, which was not my idea of a fun time penpal and should be fun and not consciously or painful for the rest so I said I was going to download the Slowly app that being said I would recommend a slowlyApp over using the actual mailbox and cramping up your wrist. 

Also I am going to change my profile picture on Facebook not my name or anything else just my profile picture of me with my boyfriend because it’s just something my ex  is going to have to deal with, amd accept.    Let’s just say my exes someone who does not want to move on or even be a happy person. He just wants to be miserable and mean and try to hack into peoples accounts who he finds have gilded him, which is kind of not his thing to do. I would love to make a fake account on his account mad that would be worth lotta calories, and I’d rather not, waste calories on him thank you.   Let’s just say me and my friend trying to contact the FBI, about his rats and other things to the west. Yes, I have said that he has made some threats towards the west and I am very disturbed but that shit show.  

October 28, 2023 P.M.

 What day was it a full moon? Something I’m not too fond of. It is a beautiful, working moon, but it does not do beautiful things when it comes to your mood or your emotions.   That being said I’ve had a tumultuous week between bingo and not wanting to go to the Halloween banquet but I was lucky enough with a Halloween banquet that it turned out to be a good time. My boyfriend was there, so that was good but I’m just gonna talk about what does a dorm full moon do to you on your light worker, you know the words, an empath, clairvoyant or psychic. Well it can really screw up your moods. That being said, I’m not exactly a big fan of the full moon because one of your spiritually gifted like me it’s been something that is an obstacle every month as much is beautiful to look at and Cirillo I just can’t stand the full moon. That being said, I was lucky enough to do that I didn’t get it didn’t get into any hissy fits.

As you can see, this is just a bully up in the sky that I have to deal with. I’ve had to deal with it once in July or twice in the August month, which was not exactly my cup of tea, was flying off the handle and acting a fool. But that’s what the full moon will do. Do you want your spiritually gifted weather be a psychic, clairvoyant or empath or even all three at the same time like me this kind of thing it’s just sickening to deal with every month for the full moon as much as I can be romantic the full moon way I can do to you in just got a full and can shoot up your anxiety right up to the beyond the moon region! Now that is high anxiety and I just don’t like that high anxiety that I get to the point where I don’t wanna go to things when I’m usually looking forward to them in the first place so that being said yeah, that’s the bully up there the full moon I think a bully is anyone or anything that’ll make you feel crappy inside if it’s a person has further on gratification FSN and Adam Adam, Zach like the moon well, I can’t really do very much about the moon. Wish I can ignore like I can ignore a human being but I can’t because my body is too sensitive to that darn thing I’ll tell you exactly what the full moon does.

I think it does. It is release emotions I believe and there is also the fact where you might end up having a temper tantrum and it might not because you choose to have the temper tantrum. It’s because it’s because of the full moon in the first place, I’m not making any excuses for anyone’s bad behavior, but that is basically what I had to put up with on Thursday, which I was not too tickled about myself. That being said, I was not happy to release emotions that were not supposed to be released they can be either negative or positive emotions but when it comes to the full moon and me it’s negative emotions all the time when I get snarly and everything else also you get increased energy, so this is like coffee practically where are you end up having increased different energy levels, vivid dreams, as well as heighten intuition, as well as so I can abilities and other things a little different from coffee, but can cause the same things and you can also affect your sleep. This is something I have learned over the years that the full moon can have as a factor on you. It’s not exactly fun to deal with it. I’ll tell you that much.!

Everyone is always saying well there’s a full moon out tonight that’s gonna be interesting or that’s where the weirdos come out to play. I take that as an insult because I am completely saying but one of the full moon is it with some thing flies up my butt and I don’t know what it is but it makes me so angry inside, and I have to let it out. Something I’d rather do creatively, but in this case it does its own thing at the full moon. 

It’s a real pain in the toes to deal with the full moon and how to deal with it. There are different moon baths. You can do a moon rituals you can do like taking a longer shower. I took a longer shower today than I did on Thursday which was pretty interesting and I was able to have a better time today than I did with anything else but anyways it was very interesting that the full moon can have his affect on you. I don’t know what it does physiologically or what it does physically to the body but I know this is what it does emotionally and psychologically to your body. I’ve looked it up so many dang times have a full moon. Come make it go insane in some cases not criminally insane but you just to the point where you’re going to have a real bad raunchy nightmare, or a raunchy temper tantrum with some thing I’d rather not deal with it  on most cases very rarely do I have a PTSD, flashback and less it is during a full moon. I don’t know why, but the full moon seems to be the case for the cause of everything. I know some people wrote poems about the damn thing and other things but that’s beside the point I think it’s just a bully, this seems to reside in the sky instead of in the schoolyard or wherever you may hang out. It’s a bully that’s all it is to me. It makes me feel like crap every month or every few months and I just can’t stand it.

That being said, I do try to draw pictures of the full moon Cuz I am fascinated about the full moon that being said, it’s very interesting and I like to learn how to make a full moon drawing so I can get that tattooed on me one day that being said, I don’t know why, but the show that I am an empath clairvoyant as well as it so I can see your person.   There is another talks of me being a star child, as well as other interesting things about being a light worker, which is very interesting, very interested in the New Age stuff, like crystals and healing crystals and healing stones. They actually are more effective than your damn medication at some points, but when you’re dealing with a full moon, then you’re actually better off taking your medication because I learned that the hard way one time last spring when I was taking off one of my medication is it full moon and then the next thing you know I went completely bonkers was not exactly my cup of tea for the spring of 2023.

You’re gonna basically say if I have a problem in life or a behaviour if you were to call it that that the full moon is not too far behind. In fact, it is right close next to my brain driving me insane! And that’s what I had to deal with all day as well as all week was a damn full moon! Damn…….

October 28, 2023 A.M.

 So today I bought a liquid lunch or liquid breakfast if you were I’m not an alcoholic extra shit I like tea and the different times if they have that these days that they come around I had a Kubota key, which is pretty good which is like a fermented tea but it’s not alcoholic thank God you would think fermented would mean alcoholic, but that’s beside the point I was out for a drive for most of the morning and I came across this kombucha tea, which was very delicious. It was lemon ginger, and it was very good. And I enjoy it so much that’s not what the whole long is going to be about. I also was doing other things this morning like I was doing penpaling as well as I had a good lunch and I also enjoyed my drive around the town which was good I don’t dry, but I have someone to drive me. Because I live in a group home! That being said, because my PTSD, and a little bit of fault of my Asperger’s, and ADHD so that’s why I live in a group home. But also, that would be another different story as to how I got to the group home. But the size of a point this is what I was interested in. What is the tea I’ll show you that. It was very interesting...

This is called loon. It is a kombucha tea which is very interesting and it was very interesting. It tasted had a creamy taste to it, and I was just wonderful drink. I save it for most of the morning and I was there interesting to taste I wouldn’t mind having this again sometime when I have more money. The kombucha is now my favourite thing other than the energy drinks with your very interesting too, but the energy drinks will keep you up for half the night. This will keep you up for the day. At least it wasn’t Pascal I don’t think but it was still delicious nonetheless.   Kombucha tea also has a lot of probiotics as well as antioxidants another interesting things that are going to keep you alive longer. If you want to. This is very interesting. He drank it and you can tell that is good for you because it taste so f*cking good. So I ended up drinking Moshe web for the morning and then sell that for my can collection on myself. Along with the Special Olympics trophy, I got from pulling the firetruck and other things. Mostly, my shelves are for box and my musical instruments. I have actually different musical instruments of kalimba, steel tongue, drum, and other things but I also like to play the keyboard. I have a keyboard in my room as well as other things though I should get back at the keyboard, that being said, I’m also interested in music. I’m trying to dabble this possible. It’s very interesting to see the idea of a keyboard or a piano. It doesn’t really mean that you have to have lessons I only listen I need to learn just like the kombucha tea. Is that the flavour as well complement each other the same thing with the sounds, if they complement each other very well in the first place that you were going to get a song out of it that’s basically how it goes! I will tell you more about my keyboard sooner or letter.

Also went to garage sale for a charitable causes at the local high school, which was very interesting. I’ve seen very many interesting things, but as I said, I’m saving up for a tattoo so the only thing I can do is take pictures of the darn things which is just fine with me. But that’s the sort of the point. It was very interesting to see the different stuff. They did not have lord of the rings books, which was fine with me. I couldn’t breathe a sigh of relief, or I would’ve been having an attitude problem over a Book, I was very interested in the different books, but they learn to Andrew saying let’s put it that way, but I was interesting to see what other people are reading and what they were throwing out in service, so I seeing a lifestyles of the poor people without going around, an snooping in the garbage or anything this is very interesting to see that you can look at the window in a somebody’s life through a garage sale and see from there and then you actually are interested in what that person dies or something similar to what that person does. This case I write nature is just the way it is this one is for dogs that are flying around. And there in a foil like saying, this is very interesting. But I have a painting that is similar to this already go to the smaller but I wish I could’ve gotten ass anyways that being said I took a picture of it. It was very interesting to see this and I wish I could’ve been able to get it but as I said, I have my priorities, but I did have my phone with me at all times which is very interesting nonetheless. So I was looking around the garage sale in my place where I go to do my basketball, and was very interesting to see where things were leading the different peoples lives in the past that was!

The one thing I wish I can fly, but I know I will end up dying if I try, it will be really snowboarding. Snowboarding is something that I want to do but I am afraid of broken lines, breaking my neck or otherwise or stupid stuff I still remember the last time I went to a waterpark, and I nearly died there by flying off the dam waterslide, which was not my find side of things. I was literally flying off the water slide imagine what the snowboarding will call for me if I were to try that. That being said, I’m not too keen on Winter it coming is not my exact thing that I want to deal with except for the idea of a free in early stargazing, but even at that I’d have to go to the mudroom to get the damn clothing that is needed.  If it was the California or something, I wouldn’t mind winter than I can actually handover you long night and not have to put on a cold and just go and enjoy the stargazing as as as if it was summer. That being said my favourite constellation is the Big Dipper, I’ve always had an interest in the big dipper not because it’s easy to find or  orange easy to identify what is very interesting to see where it came from someone with an imagination had to come up with the big dipper. That being said if someone was born majority of them is that being said, I said that many times I think there is a higher power, but is that higher power male? 

I think with the detail the mass of the spirit came into the world and the universe. I think that the massive detail shows that the higher power is either or female, or non-binary. That being said, that’s just what I think about this higher power is it either she or they.   I don’t believe we also have to name this higher power, or to give it a name or anything else like that. I think it’s just what it is nature and its purest form that being said, I have mentioned in my dream belong where I think the demons and the devil or also very much naturally occurring, which is kind of sad, but it’s true. The specially the same thing with ghosts.   

The paranormal is nothing more than nature at its finest. If you were to say that and it is just interesting to go about that I think if there is a devil, there must be something good up there that created the big dipper in the first place, and that’s where I surmise that this is female as well the creator is female, as well as the devil is also a female as well. I’ve mentioned that you might have a blog for my dreams and nightmares. That being said, it’s very interesting to see where things are gonna go from there. It’s interesting to see what you think about what a higher power is supposed to be. It’s not supposed to be a building or a book or a name it’s just wore it is nature at its finest. The sun is shining and other things like that. I don’t believe in my organized religion I believe in Shamanism, and Buddhism.   That to be said, I don’t like like the idea of wars of a name for nature or whose book is better than thou’s.  It’s kind of said.  Why do we just stargazing and see that we are all the same.

If you think that soccer is a great equalizer, I think that stargazing is even more the great equalizer because all you need para glasses for your eyes and then you’re done and you’re just looking away at some thing you don’t need a fancy telescope, or anything like that you don’t need your eyes naked or otherwise corrected because it’s important to stargazer android nature, as it is instead of trying to name the deity or otherwise start up other stupid shit, that people can tell you over religion, it is kind of ridiculous to tell me the truth is not exactly my idea to tell someone how to live over for the deity that made the big dipper want to say brew. I think the idea of the idea of the holy book address to tell you how to live the way how older people want you to live like him people that are now outdated, and now Donald have the same Evolutionaries skills in the first place. That being said, I don’t think this is a very important thing to have a true legend of the organized variety. I think this was created one it was more or less, human race was still forming its thoughts and  stuff.   That being said, I believe that it’s enjoyable can join life and  stuff.  As I was going to be St. John’s hi school garage sale. I was able to see you and saying that I said that there was a lot of photo opportunities. Are you gonna see a lot of pictures of that. I took a lot of pictures of the stuff that people have thrown away on Waze, good things that is.  It kind of angers me that people would find something that is a very unique all right all right then just suck at the next day. iPhone battery very aggravating but also to my advantage because I’ll find something later and valuable and it’s like that person was an idiot to leave it out in the open for someone to throw out kind of thing. It’s kind of sad to tell you the truth are you saying that I found at the garage sale you how I did not buy them were the same deal wedges if it’s still usable, use it!

The idea of throwing out valuable items that people think are drunk is kind of sad in the first place. It’s not junk to me or anyone who is a picker. That meaning I find something that someone misses out on something that they don’t think is aware, but they find out later on through my rant things on Facebook or otherwise that it is nowhere, saying to go through these things, and then you’ll find where items are very good items in the first place. That being said, I wish people would think twice about the money they would spend. They wanna throw it out in the first place I was surprised that you would end up using it for something that would be a little less valuable if you’re gonna throw the damn thing out. It kind of aggravates me that there are people in the world that don’t have the beautiful things and people just chuck them in the first place, which is a good thing for me, but it isn’t good for anyone else because it’s like oh you lost something very good, and you missed out because you were ignoring enough to throw it out. But anyways, it was a very good charitable cards that the money was going to, but I just wish that I was able to rescue some of the stuff but as I said, maybe the next time I will think about this again. It’s very interesting if you, I also did a garage sale and saw that someone was throwing stuff out. That was perfectly good. Keep it for myself as well. If I was the person who are you talking it at my garage sale. The person who lost some stuff at the Groeschel. I have Selmer lost good thing and ended up losing them to my room.  Where they hang in the wall.

I also remember going to Glencoe recycling centre which is where I go to get other stuff that people unwittingly throw out and I found two flags, and I was able to get them but I haven’t got my flag collection, but just waiting for them to be hung up on my wall instead of my brothers tapestries I would tell you more about my brother is more less an idiot that’s just the way it is! That being said, I’m very happy to share that I will be getting a flag so stupid head stupid tapestries and the tapestry to go to something that’s a lot more share a room or at least I don’t want that tapestries nor do I want to deal with them before, and I think they would be better off for a charitable cause!   Think about it. 

October 27, 2023 Late P.M.

 The dance was very good. I was able to spend a lot of time with my boyfriend, but it was starting to wear on my feet as always wearing heels. I did not injure myself thank God thank God my order for one thing at the same time, but I ended up losing the ability to walk when I got home and if I did wanna cry, I was cursing and swearing but anyways, it was beside the point never wear a goddamn high heel if you can help  it, there was a lot of songs, emotional, more pretty good songs, and the others were kind of crappy, but there is some also romantic song which was good I actually shared if you kisses with him and stuff, but anyways, romantic songs we dance to mostly. He also would sing the lyrics to me. That to me, he said it was very nice to see what he said if it wasn’t for everyone dressed in a Halloween costume, especially one that look like a t word, I would’ve enjoyed my time even more and would’ve been able to say that I was in one of the more romantic times I’ve had in my life or the only romantic that I had in my life.

When I would sit at the table to eat a cupcake, it was pretty interesting and then I ended up dancing some more there is some romantic songs, and then there is some Halloween sign if you were to say that I like the Halloween songs, especially the songs by the citizens of Halloween from the nightmare before Christmas. That is my favourite song. I will give you the lyrics so you know which one I’m talking about but anyways, it’s very interesting. I’ve never been this happy since I was about oh 12 years old.    And this is Halloween is especially one of my favourite songs since I was a Louis little thing almost before I went to school. I will let you or if I was just going to school at the time when I want to kindergarten that was my favourite song song anyways, I also wanna love seeing this is Halloween in a karaoke saying when I was just a little as well. Embarrassing my parents absolute remind me of!

What do you rather interesting things like the people’s car? She was very good except for the guy that look like UBL! And we all know who were talking about there who orchestrated those attacks so many years ago I can’t believe someone would dress up like that, but that is what it was and they want this costume. I wouldn’t be too surprised about that because it was a pretty convincing costume. I almost kept staring at the idiot, who look like a UBL for a long time until I realize it was just a goddamn Halloween costume. I thought I was just going to have a plain old PTSD flashbacks, but didn’t turn out. It was gonna be the case like yesterday when I had a real freak out! So that being said the costume was good, but it was a little bit too convincing to me, and I am pretty sure that was one thing I did not really like, but it was a good good enough costume to be convincing enough that I like oh, my freaking God!

I had a vanilla cupcake and it was very good. I can still taste it as if it were implanted in my tongue, but it was very interesting to be going to a dance since I was in grade 7. Before I was being bullied half to death. Let’s just say that me and bullying don’t get along and I do not except or trans on bullying as a good way I understand I find it to be a very negative thing to do. When I was in grade 8, and everyone did any dances when I was in the high school even though I was not really bullied in high school never really did any dances dreading the prom, so this was completely early and to me since I haven’t done this for the past 21 years at least. And it was very unusual to be going around dancing and stuff but I also like the sense of dancing around with my boyfriend, which is very nice.    

Yes……

When I am in grade 7, that was the only time I ever went to the dance. After that, I ended up not going to the dance after grade 7 because of the sheer bullying I went through. I will tell you more about that but I’m pretty sure that was in my biographies under the name Eleanor a fox stars. A look that up on Amazon if you don’t believe me about bullying and human rights violations, I went through and great day and beyond until I finally snapped and said, I give a shit about what the other bullies thought of me just as long as I was who I am, and I still remember the day when I have that particular freak out, I was expanding or stretching my ears, that at the time was the only thing close to me and my ancestors was bodyguard. Still do this point I can go on a valve body yard for a long time, but this was just a dancer. Anyways, I am is well just go towards the jugular when I first ranch to my ears it was because my ancestors from the Himalayas Tibetan Boutin used to do that as well. Also, I ended up getting an interested .from the Himalayas Tibetan Boutin used to do that as well. Also, I ended up getting a interested in the body ordered very quickly again before I was five years old I would remember exactly seeing someone with an eyebrow ring and complementing them on it.  Now I have a piercing of my own right now. It’s stopped hurting complete not completely but it’s a lot better than my freaking feet are.

No…..

Do you know where high heels for an extended period of time in last year a flight attendant or an idiot that’s what I think because I was an idiot to do so I thought I’ll just be part of my costume in the 19. Oh yeah, some wailing my big toe.   Wiggle your big toe. Yes I have to say that to myself like I’m not blind off of kill Bill just to see if my feet are still hurting or the shake out the paint this is the first time I ever felt any physical pain, except for one, and I was acting a fool at bingo, a bingo a day ago when she was just playing intense pain in my opinion…… as I said, I feel more emotional pain than I do physical, but in this case it was the other way around I was not feeling any emotional pain but man in my feet freaking hurt! 

October 27, 2023 P.M.

 This is my make up that I did today for the dance. As you can tell, I was able to do a tree I was going to do a poppy tomorrow as in the flower but that changed but anyways let’s see these beautiful pictures I’ve taken they kind a look like navy seal camouflage paint right now because I’m not too good with face painting right now, but it’ll get better over time I believe. I remember that on the 31st of Halloween that this is gonna be the day when I dress up like Dale Gribble I will give you an update on Dale grandma later. As I said this is basically it is the tree there is so many different story mythological things about trees for one trees, always fascinated me like a. For example, if you knock on a tree, you were ours, the spirit of the dad to wake up to do a favour for you supposedly that you believe. But there are other symbols of the tree like tree of life in England in Celtic settings, as well as the bodhi tree in buddhism, which is very important, so I always like trees are the easiest thing to draw I will show you tomorrow my drawings of trees one day, but anyway, it’s just a hater branch off and then branch off to another branch and stuff. 

Most of the pictures will look the same. I must warn him but they’re the same damn design that I did today. It took me all afternoon to get this design set up. It was very interesting to see that I wanted to be a tree or some kind of plant life form instead of some thing, a human or Cryptid why is this is basically a face in in a tree in the Bindi is about the lights on more or less the MOTi tree. If you were to say that where Buddha got his enlightening retain Enlightenment from the tree, the bodhi tree is very important to my people who live in Tibetan still live in Tibetan haven’t had been bred out my other groups if you were. I am very happy to say that that’s one thing that made me want to be a tree but also there was this it’s spooky. Wanted to see a tree in the moonlight anyway so that being said, it’s very important for me to go and look at a Moon and see the spookiness and stuff that come with it. That being said, I was very interested in how it turned out. It may have turned out when I got back to the house like I look like a Navy seal, but other than that it was just that was basically what it was supposed to be was a tree and I did not clean my neck goddamnit. Other than that I was the thing I was doing I was trying to follow a template. I had taken courses on face painting so I try to exploit that is well, with the skills that I’ve used to face paint in order to go and actually create the tree that I wanted. I will tell you one day how to do it, but it’s kind of hard.

So he didn’t get a taste of what I was doing all afternoon for about four hours straight trying to get the make up right. And I had to wear the make up another four hours before going to the dance. I will tell you more about the dance later on but anyways, this is basically me with my artistic skills in using my Pagán, make up skills and the actual skills of a face painter to see where that comes to play. Also, FaceTime does use one time in many cultures to scare away the actual evil spirit. Most of them would be evil spirit being the people who died of suicide, unfortunately them, as well as people who died of drowning and accidents, as well as certain deaths. This would be similar to my mother as she had a sudden death. She did not drown or killer self but she did have a very sudden death as I remember correctly I will tell you that on the anniversary of her death. Other than that I’m not gonna mention that, but those are the kinds of spirits, since you want to avoid at this time of year is samhain Halloween. I would not recommend talking to your dead mother, who died very suddenly last year address to cope while you’re going trick-or-treating because you never know they are actually going to be right there to possess you or something I think that’s what the legend was. And Maddie call Teresa. This is been the same in many European and indigenous cultures as well so this is kind of an interesting thing that the make up was to avoid the the late people who died suddenly at this time of year they become demons, which is kind of strange, but it is true. There’s only one other time one of the Halloween comes out again we have two of them one in May, and obviously the one in October the one in May is just as dangerous if you were to talk to her dearly departed mother who died of a sudden death just as an example. So this is one the people you love can become very dangerous when they have been dead for us so long is kind of a strange concept, but face paint, and costume seem to be the way to scare these dead relatives off. 

There are other interesting things about this time of year like they’re the same damn day the same concept but a different name. I think there is a Russian one and Eastern European one as well as the Celtic one we know so well which is sound when was the magazine Halloween, as well as there’s one in Indian to bed as well as in China. China is called the ghost festival. I think they more or less worship the friggin ghosts at that time is it in trying to avoid them?   Don’t get me wrong. I are usually different cultures I always have, but these are what I learn about the different conference room reading all the snooping around on the Internet. Which goes to my next question why do I snoop on the Internet relationship on the Internet, because of my ancestry am I really a Celtic now but I do believe in there is a Halloween like thing in Shamnism and another one like that and he said he’s here which would be the ghost festival which is friggin scary supposedly but anyways I learn about these cultures through writing friends, or learning about them online. Especially if they pertain to me I like to learn about them because it’s very interesting. I am multiracial. If you were a call, let that and multi cultural I have everything from chechen and Tibetan, who are eager Mongolian to white to a Arab to everything else in between as well is very interesting to see that. You see this is why I hate racism because you can learn from that called her that you could email thread if you decide to friggin open your stupid mind in your ear holes if you know what I mean. That being said, I’m not gonna get that topic. This is Halloween.

Anyways, I’ve learned over the years how to create good make up skills, not just through that class with his face painting, but also through Facebook another means of Internet as well when they decide to post SFW are safe for work stuff that is actually good for people like me who have a zero tolerance to adult entertainment. Don’t get me started on that either but anyways well let me get started on that is that I’d rather look through how to do tattoos and make up and face painting and all that nice stuff that Facebook should be having instead of the NSFW bullshit that Facebook allows these days which I am very shocked they allow in the first place. I literally had to take. I think about a three month break from Facebook because it was so raunchy and it was affecting my mental health. That being said yes, I did learn a lot of the road how to do make up how to blend make up and stuff like that when they decide to put the friendly stuff on that’s family friendly that is. I don’t know how many goddamn times I’ve had a call up Facebook and say listen there’s this idiot going around in her panties and bra and I don’t even think they fit her. She looks like a fat f*ck and other things and it’s really disturbing and just say that while you’re supposed to be body, positive and fat positive, it’s kind of sad, but you should not be wearing things that are toy smaller than you and think that that is actually sexy is raunchy. And I think these people she only come out on Halloween because they are not scary enough for me.!

You are wondering when I’m trying to learn about make up and stuff on Facebook or talk to my friends that I end up seeing a anatomy picture or a girl that is wearing something that doesn’t leave very much to the doctor well, that kind of aggravates me to the point where it’s like you know there are psychopaths out there that are going to hurt you or at least try hurt you in someway and it’s kind of sad that you’re allowing this to happen to your body. I don’t believe that you have to be NSFW just to be online. I think that is excuse my terminologies, but retarded! Yes, I actually used that word, but it wasn’t meant for people with disabilities. Instead, it was meant for people who don’t know or have respect for their own goddamn bodies kind of retarded when you think about that excuse me again! And it kind of makes me feel threatened as well because I wear clothes in 24 hours a day, except to take a shower and I don’t wanna show my skin to anyone except maybe the tattoo artist and you and I have that I said G rated area or PG-13 related area so I don’t even bother dealing with these kind of people who show but cannot barrel in the ID and stuff. They don’t even have a good make up they were nude make up if you know what that means, that makes you look like you’re not wearing anything at all make up for it, so they’re not wearing anything not even a Fucking make up, which is kind of sad for me to think about because it or they don’t eat or they do something harmful to themselves and they don’t give a rats ass. I think these girls that shows these E-girls I think are really walking on eggshells as far as safety is concerned because I’m afraid of the round well-being, as well as I’m annoyed by the fact that they don’t wear copious amounts of clothing! 

As you can see, I have come from an agent of Internet where there was no such thing as an online porn. If you had to get it, you had to get it somewhere else on the dark web instead of the main stream web, which is kind of sad nowadays is on Actual normal web. Instead of the dark web, where is fucking belongs to begin with I remember my father being able to go onto the dark web to see whatever, or you wouldn’t of accidentally going on the dark web. I don’t know what, but he was not a very smart man in my opinion, and that being said yeah, I think it should be only for the dark web this NSFW crap I think no one should be able to know about this stuff. I don’t even think it’s casual or anything and then I’m gonna run her sister but I don’t post my my anatomy or other parts of my body that really should not be seeing the light of the sun. That being said I am, I thought I did it would have to be for the dark web, but I don’t believe in doing anything for the dark web if I always look down, the dark web is for a video blog or a Vlog if you were to call dad. Just to get my two cents worth on the dark web, which is not as gentler two cents worth as far as my fucking idea of the dark web there’s too many on scrupulous January unsavoury people on the screwballs size is dot onions and stuff like that I just rather not deal with it the dot onions and other stuff.  I think the Dodge onions and other things that are kind of questionable on the international only come out on Halloween not bad, mouthing the holiday, but if you wanna frightn in the shit out of someone do it then! Thank you. 

When I think about that the horrible stuff people do on the Internet I really think that shouldn’t even be done on Halloween. I think it should never be done. And the stupidity, sheer stupidity that is a onlin iPhone is ridiculous when I’m trying to go and look up things for make up or whatever or about my ancestors, and you never know anyway with a dark onion, which is kind of pissing me off that these things are there. They actually show the horrible Nas of human nature for money, and my father always said, and this is why I had that outburst yesterday was the idea that evil, the all the root of evil in ignorance and stupidity in our word is basically this which is the love of money and only money. If you are money, focused, and just don’t really give a shit about everything else except for money you can I wanna fuck to. You’re going down a one-way trip to Hell both on earth as well as, on the subterranean round that is hell. Too many people have given their loyalty or others things to other people who are not very kind to our society, and they did it for money like Robert Hansen, who was the FBI agent who did not believe in fidelity, bravery, or integrity . How did I know about this person was that I read about him in a readers digest story. I remember when I was in seventh or 8th to 9th grade that I will be reading readers digest for all my time because I learned how to read and enjoy them through my therapist, waiting for my therapist to come and get me after talking to my parents, and most of the stuff is FBI relay when she was very interesting!