It is getting to the time of year tomorrow where the past life flashback and eerie and spiritual things start to happen! That is Halloween, when the vail of the spirit world and the materialistic world fades into oblivion for the night, that being said, it is also time when you should give thanks to your ancestors no matter how asinine to begin with that being said, it is what it is you have to give thanks to your ancestors, no matter how asinining the trades they give you. I might not exactly enjoy having thick thick thick hair, especially the dark super thick hair that itches with out lice! That being said it is asining because I hate being short and small for my age! But the one thing I am thank full to my Tibetan ancestors, and Mongolian ancestors is that I am super strong, flexible and has a very very high tolerance to pain, well the physical pain that is……not emotional pain ! I can go one about how the tattoo artist would say that a 200- 400 lbs man wouldn’t handle some of the tattoo piercing that I got. But I won’t! That being said, I am nature based in my philosophy as well as buddhist! As were my ancestors!
Today I am learning about another set of ancestors that were mongolianish! The persians! My my, I will be reading for weeks learning about the eastern persians and western Tibetan, and what a good time to acknowledge your ancestors then on samhain/ Halloween! We were going to a friend’s house when I saw something of my ancestors that did not I loved a tattoo parlour, but instead I was able to touch these……tibetan prayer flags! I love these things! Also I had them as a child when my father open his mouth and lit the cat out of the bag, telling me that I was Persian and Tibetan, something I kind of new with my facial features and how strong I am. But I wanted to do a DNA test, and my father was right on the moon, as well as Siberian, Dagestan, chechen, and other interesting peoples! But to me I identify more with the eastern ancestors of Persia and Tibet! That is why I got my septum pierced in the first place, ironically at this month. It is interesting to be born in Europe but be actually Asian to begin with! No back to Halloween!
Halloween,I am doing my bed laundry a day early because of Halloween, this is because I want nothing to hang over my head except for a Jackolantern or fake cobwebs! I want to be able to go trick or treating even though I am 34, spiritual health has no age in my opinion- especially if it is fun! I have been trick or treating since the day I became a Canadian citizen at two years old, more or less 32 of my 34 years of existence! Which I am trying to do a record for the eldest trick or treater and that is no small feet, as some people would think I was completely insane to do so, but then my short and small body gives me an advantage for once in my life! I really have to thank my ancestors for that! Being petit! I problably will continue until age 40, I hope if not 10 years senior of 40. I just love Halloween! Well except on 2018, that was a bad years I was having a month long past life flashback! That will be a long and hard topic to talk about, but it was very interesting nonetheless! But I was freaking out, my parents or my worker at the time shauna would not know when the next freak out will be! It was an aggravating month that year! And I did not enjoy Halloween that year!
I will have a blog just for this particular past life and that will not be easy because I will involve me taking for an old blog! Was was called past life pillow book which is mature in most cases but I need to finish telling the story about that life it is kind of embrassassing and that I had to cry at the first entry ….. it brought about a lot of memories I would like to forget from that life! Let’s just say it was in Tibet but it was during the invasion from the west , it is kind of gory at the end! Sh*t! I hated that past life! But I had other past lives in Tibet that I had that we more positive! That was the month long past life flashback that I wished was a ptsd post traumatic stress disorder flash back, and it ruined Halloween for in 2018! To be honest that year was hard but refreshing for me in the first place! But would not want to go do it all over again for the simple fact that it was super emotional, and that being said ……. I remember the worker and I had a falling out over fucking martial arts, let’s say that demonized martial arts for some fucked up reason, not knowing that it was a form of mindfulness and anger management! Had I known what it was for then I would have. Laid off the subject with her! But that was in the past! I know that my parents did not want me to connect with her on Facebook for the longest time because of this sh*t show of a falling out! But when I got to the group home I tried really tried to get back to being friends! Then we went our separate ways!
What I want for this years is not to have a repeat of 2018 where I had such a massive past life flashback that it ruined my Halloween, that being said that time I couldn’t go trick or treating because of a fucking cold I had! That nearly happened this last years as I had the cold from hell that broke most of my ribs, man did that ever hurt! Remember Asians are just humans and like you have the same human features! Including the sensation of pain at some degree! My people pain leave is that would be a 10 to most people, are a mild discomfort and agravation! I had no idea about and still don’t know how I did that ! The pain tolerance but that being said I am not an iPad, as I feel emotional pain tenfold! That is why I am at the group home, just to deal with the emotional and it might take a life time! It is nice to be ina safe place but I wish it was on better terms the sh*tty emotions! That being said I am trying to learn the value of a dollar, job skills, life skill, and how to look after my self! That is the good thing! That and I have friends were ever I turn that helps with the emotional pain! This Halloween I am hoping to give thanks to my multi cultural ancestors and wear fake blood or make up to scare this living sh*t out of the evil and jealous spirits that I fear most let me tell you about spiritual hygiene……October 31rst!……
These evil spirits can be anything from someone who died of a sudden, accidental or project as to someone who had died of suicide, or someone who had become a demon. One of the two orders of the minute that being said, you have to be very careful when you’re out, roaming the streets on Halloween because if you catch a demon and you’re not wearing a costume you’re up a creek! National Joe takes like the block Brighton bar for the spirit world. Where is the block button is for the Facebook. If you want to block the demons, or the people who had died suddenly drowned or accidental deaths or suicide,. Those are the ones they gonna be hostile to you. Which means this is the one night I am not able to acknowledge my adoptive mother has she had died suddenly. This is the one time when she is a hostile spear alarm for family, 10Which means this is the one night I am not able to acknowledge my adoptive mother as she had died suddenly. This is the one time when she is a hostile spirit, unfortunately and I cannot even acknowledge her existence in this world when she was around for my own soul, safety!
That being said, I also enjoy going out in costume because it’s the only time when I am able to be myself without any judgement or “hey r*tard!” or anything that the peanut gallery in my Siam normal days. This is my kind of day where I am able to be who I am in the first place to be where I want to be and to do what I want to do. Within an as well as the confines of the law, and a spiritual law as well. This means that I have to dress and costume, but I can dress and costume however, I want without being judged for who I really am in the first place I unique person. This is why I like Halloween to death. Not just a spiritual aspect, but also because I’m able to express myself willingly without getting bullied or otherwise, ask questions are being called the R word, or anything else for that matter that is aggravating! In other words, you can be yourself without the a holes bothering you! That is a good example too because the a holes are another form of a demon as well. They’re called bully and bullies are not exactly my cup of tea, or my cup of a rockstar, or a monster, or whatever the hell Al’s energy drink I might drank, but that is basically what it is is that it is what it is not fun to be bullied and when you’re on Halloween time, bullying doesn’t exist. Because everyone looks like a goofball sooner or later that night! Where is to look like a goofball with a purpose to help avoid the hostel spirits if you were to say. That being said, I always was interested in Halloween when I was younger I always loved it. There is something about it. That always got through to me that it was interesting. In a good way. I don’t know why, but I am clairvoyant EMPATH and psychic. That means Halloween is usually my kind of day unless you are a powerful so I can plan is not your kind of day!
Don’t know about Halloween has it his drawing effect to me as if it’s important to me to be creative and to be unique. I can do that 365 days a year! But this is the one day, where I can true be me, at my finest! I always feel bad when Halloween is over! And it’s November 1rst, That being said! November 1rst this year will be a complete sh*t because I have to go to the freaking dentist and get a tooth filled and that isn’t my kind of fun to tell you the truth, I hate the dentist, some people like doctors and then there are people with a similar genetic code = who hate doctors in the first place as if by instinct! Let’s say that not just other people suffered in ww2, but also the Asians at the hands of doctors! That being said I sleep all dentist or doctor day because it takes sooo much out of me not to punch the racist in the f*cking mouth or nose!
This how much I am looking forward two nov 1, 2023. So tou have an idea what that blog is going to look like!
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