October 27, 2023 P.M.

 This is my make up that I did today for the dance. As you can tell, I was able to do a tree I was going to do a poppy tomorrow as in the flower but that changed but anyways let’s see these beautiful pictures I’ve taken they kind a look like navy seal camouflage paint right now because I’m not too good with face painting right now, but it’ll get better over time I believe. I remember that on the 31st of Halloween that this is gonna be the day when I dress up like Dale Gribble I will give you an update on Dale grandma later. As I said this is basically it is the tree there is so many different story mythological things about trees for one trees, always fascinated me like a. For example, if you knock on a tree, you were ours, the spirit of the dad to wake up to do a favour for you supposedly that you believe. But there are other symbols of the tree like tree of life in England in Celtic settings, as well as the bodhi tree in buddhism, which is very important, so I always like trees are the easiest thing to draw I will show you tomorrow my drawings of trees one day, but anyway, it’s just a hater branch off and then branch off to another branch and stuff. 

Most of the pictures will look the same. I must warn him but they’re the same damn design that I did today. It took me all afternoon to get this design set up. It was very interesting to see that I wanted to be a tree or some kind of plant life form instead of some thing, a human or Cryptid why is this is basically a face in in a tree in the Bindi is about the lights on more or less the MOTi tree. If you were to say that where Buddha got his enlightening retain Enlightenment from the tree, the bodhi tree is very important to my people who live in Tibetan still live in Tibetan haven’t had been bred out my other groups if you were. I am very happy to say that that’s one thing that made me want to be a tree but also there was this it’s spooky. Wanted to see a tree in the moonlight anyway so that being said, it’s very important for me to go and look at a Moon and see the spookiness and stuff that come with it. That being said, I was very interested in how it turned out. It may have turned out when I got back to the house like I look like a Navy seal, but other than that it was just that was basically what it was supposed to be was a tree and I did not clean my neck goddamnit. Other than that I was the thing I was doing I was trying to follow a template. I had taken courses on face painting so I try to exploit that is well, with the skills that I’ve used to face paint in order to go and actually create the tree that I wanted. I will tell you one day how to do it, but it’s kind of hard.

So he didn’t get a taste of what I was doing all afternoon for about four hours straight trying to get the make up right. And I had to wear the make up another four hours before going to the dance. I will tell you more about the dance later on but anyways, this is basically me with my artistic skills in using my Pagán, make up skills and the actual skills of a face painter to see where that comes to play. Also, FaceTime does use one time in many cultures to scare away the actual evil spirit. Most of them would be evil spirit being the people who died of suicide, unfortunately them, as well as people who died of drowning and accidents, as well as certain deaths. This would be similar to my mother as she had a sudden death. She did not drown or killer self but she did have a very sudden death as I remember correctly I will tell you that on the anniversary of her death. Other than that I’m not gonna mention that, but those are the kinds of spirits, since you want to avoid at this time of year is samhain Halloween. I would not recommend talking to your dead mother, who died very suddenly last year address to cope while you’re going trick-or-treating because you never know they are actually going to be right there to possess you or something I think that’s what the legend was. And Maddie call Teresa. This is been the same in many European and indigenous cultures as well so this is kind of an interesting thing that the make up was to avoid the the late people who died suddenly at this time of year they become demons, which is kind of strange, but it is true. There’s only one other time one of the Halloween comes out again we have two of them one in May, and obviously the one in October the one in May is just as dangerous if you were to talk to her dearly departed mother who died of a sudden death just as an example. So this is one the people you love can become very dangerous when they have been dead for us so long is kind of a strange concept, but face paint, and costume seem to be the way to scare these dead relatives off. 

There are other interesting things about this time of year like they’re the same damn day the same concept but a different name. I think there is a Russian one and Eastern European one as well as the Celtic one we know so well which is sound when was the magazine Halloween, as well as there’s one in Indian to bed as well as in China. China is called the ghost festival. I think they more or less worship the friggin ghosts at that time is it in trying to avoid them?   Don’t get me wrong. I are usually different cultures I always have, but these are what I learn about the different conference room reading all the snooping around on the Internet. Which goes to my next question why do I snoop on the Internet relationship on the Internet, because of my ancestry am I really a Celtic now but I do believe in there is a Halloween like thing in Shamnism and another one like that and he said he’s here which would be the ghost festival which is friggin scary supposedly but anyways I learn about these cultures through writing friends, or learning about them online. Especially if they pertain to me I like to learn about them because it’s very interesting. I am multiracial. If you were a call, let that and multi cultural I have everything from chechen and Tibetan, who are eager Mongolian to white to a Arab to everything else in between as well is very interesting to see that. You see this is why I hate racism because you can learn from that called her that you could email thread if you decide to friggin open your stupid mind in your ear holes if you know what I mean. That being said, I’m not gonna get that topic. This is Halloween.

Anyways, I’ve learned over the years how to create good make up skills, not just through that class with his face painting, but also through Facebook another means of Internet as well when they decide to post SFW are safe for work stuff that is actually good for people like me who have a zero tolerance to adult entertainment. Don’t get me started on that either but anyways well let me get started on that is that I’d rather look through how to do tattoos and make up and face painting and all that nice stuff that Facebook should be having instead of the NSFW bullshit that Facebook allows these days which I am very shocked they allow in the first place. I literally had to take. I think about a three month break from Facebook because it was so raunchy and it was affecting my mental health. That being said yes, I did learn a lot of the road how to do make up how to blend make up and stuff like that when they decide to put the friendly stuff on that’s family friendly that is. I don’t know how many goddamn times I’ve had a call up Facebook and say listen there’s this idiot going around in her panties and bra and I don’t even think they fit her. She looks like a fat f*ck and other things and it’s really disturbing and just say that while you’re supposed to be body, positive and fat positive, it’s kind of sad, but you should not be wearing things that are toy smaller than you and think that that is actually sexy is raunchy. And I think these people she only come out on Halloween because they are not scary enough for me.!

You are wondering when I’m trying to learn about make up and stuff on Facebook or talk to my friends that I end up seeing a anatomy picture or a girl that is wearing something that doesn’t leave very much to the doctor well, that kind of aggravates me to the point where it’s like you know there are psychopaths out there that are going to hurt you or at least try hurt you in someway and it’s kind of sad that you’re allowing this to happen to your body. I don’t believe that you have to be NSFW just to be online. I think that is excuse my terminologies, but retarded! Yes, I actually used that word, but it wasn’t meant for people with disabilities. Instead, it was meant for people who don’t know or have respect for their own goddamn bodies kind of retarded when you think about that excuse me again! And it kind of makes me feel threatened as well because I wear clothes in 24 hours a day, except to take a shower and I don’t wanna show my skin to anyone except maybe the tattoo artist and you and I have that I said G rated area or PG-13 related area so I don’t even bother dealing with these kind of people who show but cannot barrel in the ID and stuff. They don’t even have a good make up they were nude make up if you know what that means, that makes you look like you’re not wearing anything at all make up for it, so they’re not wearing anything not even a Fucking make up, which is kind of sad for me to think about because it or they don’t eat or they do something harmful to themselves and they don’t give a rats ass. I think these girls that shows these E-girls I think are really walking on eggshells as far as safety is concerned because I’m afraid of the round well-being, as well as I’m annoyed by the fact that they don’t wear copious amounts of clothing! 

As you can see, I have come from an agent of Internet where there was no such thing as an online porn. If you had to get it, you had to get it somewhere else on the dark web instead of the main stream web, which is kind of sad nowadays is on Actual normal web. Instead of the dark web, where is fucking belongs to begin with I remember my father being able to go onto the dark web to see whatever, or you wouldn’t of accidentally going on the dark web. I don’t know what, but he was not a very smart man in my opinion, and that being said yeah, I think it should be only for the dark web this NSFW crap I think no one should be able to know about this stuff. I don’t even think it’s casual or anything and then I’m gonna run her sister but I don’t post my my anatomy or other parts of my body that really should not be seeing the light of the sun. That being said I am, I thought I did it would have to be for the dark web, but I don’t believe in doing anything for the dark web if I always look down, the dark web is for a video blog or a Vlog if you were to call dad. Just to get my two cents worth on the dark web, which is not as gentler two cents worth as far as my fucking idea of the dark web there’s too many on scrupulous January unsavoury people on the screwballs size is dot onions and stuff like that I just rather not deal with it the dot onions and other stuff.  I think the Dodge onions and other things that are kind of questionable on the international only come out on Halloween not bad, mouthing the holiday, but if you wanna frightn in the shit out of someone do it then! Thank you. 

When I think about that the horrible stuff people do on the Internet I really think that shouldn’t even be done on Halloween. I think it should never be done. And the stupidity, sheer stupidity that is a onlin iPhone is ridiculous when I’m trying to go and look up things for make up or whatever or about my ancestors, and you never know anyway with a dark onion, which is kind of pissing me off that these things are there. They actually show the horrible Nas of human nature for money, and my father always said, and this is why I had that outburst yesterday was the idea that evil, the all the root of evil in ignorance and stupidity in our word is basically this which is the love of money and only money. If you are money, focused, and just don’t really give a shit about everything else except for money you can I wanna fuck to. You’re going down a one-way trip to Hell both on earth as well as, on the subterranean round that is hell. Too many people have given their loyalty or others things to other people who are not very kind to our society, and they did it for money like Robert Hansen, who was the FBI agent who did not believe in fidelity, bravery, or integrity . How did I know about this person was that I read about him in a readers digest story. I remember when I was in seventh or 8th to 9th grade that I will be reading readers digest for all my time because I learned how to read and enjoy them through my therapist, waiting for my therapist to come and get me after talking to my parents, and most of the stuff is FBI relay when she was very interesting!