Wednesday, November 8, 2023

November 8, 2023 A. M.

 So I was trying to make peace with my ex and I was waiting for his response or at least his friends response. That being said, I ended up getting a dingle on TikTok, which was very interesting and meaning a message. It was from a guy who wanted to be my adoptive brother. I know that sounds strange, but he said he enjoyed my energy like my actual aura and my energy and that he wanted me to adopt him as My little brother. Which I did, which was very interesting I spent most of the day talking to him. That being said, I don’t really care too much about my ex, and I told him about that. The situation at hand that the act was going around deleting my Facebook and stuff like that so that being said, I was very interested in having to adopt a little brother which Was in the first place I was Was actually happy that I did the same thing that my mother did with me with dad. The guy also has the PTSD as well as the Asperger‘s which is something I can actually relate to. That being said, I have never adopted a brother before I usually ended up with the two assholes that I always ended up with ones not too much of an asshole, as the other one was!

To be said, I was also trying to make my bed yesterday before I met my adoptive little brother! And that’s when all hell broke loose, and my elbow started to hurt like a son of a batch. That being said, I was like OK and it was the fact that I pulled a muscle. Oh, did it hurt! The fact that I was trying to my bedding Was just enough for me to pull a muscle in my elbow. Ouch I know that fucking hurts like a real see you next Tuesday but that was the case and it hurt like a real one! I was not very impressed. I ended up having to ice pack it! So I wasn’t amused when I went to get ready for basketball begrudgingly that one of the words who said You had an injury that had to be iced you’re not going to basketball basketball. I wasn’t exactly happy about that because I was particularly wanting to go to Get this week over with. But it looks like it’s not gonna be the case this week because of a sh*t Elbow so I ended up texting my little brother M.   I also video chatted with him much was pretty nice, but I wish it was on better circumstance instead of a sh*tty  elbow!

Also, yesterday I did some dry run modelling photos. I can show you those one day. The modelling photos were exactly what they were me without make up with Black and white photo effects. It was very interesting to see that I was black and white in the photos and I was able to go about The idea of doing classy, black and white photos without having to go Wear my bra or anything that would be considered a bad taste. There was one time when I was going to go and I thought this was safe for work but I guess the bra is not safe for work and I got sh*t So now I don’t modelling my bra anymore. That was the first and the last time I ever did that. That being said, I just try to wear a tank top or something that’s actually actually worth my time and I hope I can model during the winter. I’ve been modelling quite a bit. Also, I’ve been working on a tattoo design.  This one is for my left Brass. Same location as the right one but only it’s a different design. I’m gonna show you the design right now and I hope I get the same artist as before because I like modelling off what I have created or what I have been dealt with in the first place!


This design consist of a red heart with a biohazard sign, as well as a flaming heart as well. The biohazard is a very interesting reason because I tend to curse and swear a lot. That being said, I also try not to swear, but it’s hard not to do sometimes but anyways, that’s basically what I was gonna do and then it was a flaming heart, because well I wanted to do something with a flaming heart one day and put it on my left Chest if you were to call it that In the first place, so that was very interesting! That being said, I was very happy to make that tattoo. I made that last night around this time, and I was very interested in seeing how it’s going to turn out. After that, I think I might just let the tattoo artist created design for me just for the sake of it and I’ll be done And then just start designing more tattoos are a lot more easier on the eyes as well not just the spider eye, The spider eye was very lucky it’s another lucky charm but at least I can bring this one with me wherever I go even in the shower not that I want to find $1 million in the bathroom but anyways it’s a very lucky charm. How do I know because I was able to adopt a brother through Having this tattoo in the first place, which is kind of an unusual thing to say, but I don’t know why, but my septum piercing was lucky and then this tattoo was lucky as well. I don’t know what to say, but I am pretty much of luck! It’s kind of interesting to think about that. That random good things happen when I have this tattoo or my septum ring even though I have decided to buy another septum ring of the same Lucky color! I am very excited that I can find stuff or people that are worth my time and energy and not people like my ex!


Then there is this design that I’m gonna get In a while it’s for me and my brothe  m is my brother‘s name and I’m sorry to invade privacy That being said, I also go by the name we could not in this relationship, but I decided to go by the name kid instead as a form of the actual nickname, because I kind of look like a wicked person! But I’m not really that wicked if you feel my energy or get to know me, you would know that I am actually a decent person wicked just a name I like to use. But anyways, this is basically what I saw and circle the Soleil one day. That being said, I was very excited to see this Patick Euler act that the tattoo is a based on. ! To be said, I’m very excited about this particular design, because I am actually going to have two things to remember ladies Cortel, and as well as the brother that I have had for the first time in my life that is actually decent. I don’t believe that not all online relationship or Or friendship or sibling ships are not supposed to be all that toxic. No, they don’t have to be not online correspondence is toxic like it was with my ex so I’m very happy to say that I have adopted a little brother.   That being said, I still try to get time to do my own sh*t! Like designing tattoos and trying to draw and stuff like that so that being said, I try to keep busy as well and not Just rely on texting him or video chatting him!


So I was very busy yesterday and I’m actually pretty happy that I was except for the fact that I couldn’t go to fucking basketball! But I guess things happen for a reason I guess. If it weren’t for me, looking up that poem on Booksie I’d be up a creek without a paddle and I wouldn’t have my new little brother. Even you’re thinking I’m talking about a baby but I’m not it. This is a grown man who liked my energy and like the feel of my vibe and I’ve been told that many times before because I am an empath and a clairvoyant and a psychic. That people have mentioned that they liked my energy, but it never led to a family or familiar relationship, where I was actually gonna be happy enough to have a brother like figure brother like figure, Well, I should say brother DNA does not really count those pieces of paper really fucking count in the first place when it comes to choosing a relative sometimes you end up with the shit that you deal with but sometimes you’re also dealt with getting to choose your own family I was lucky enough to choose my family and my group home as well as Other aspects of life. That being said, I’m not very interested in my legal relatives nor my genetic relatives, except for a few handful of people!

And that handful of people was my mother and father, and they are kind of on the either ring of dying or they have died, so I don’t really care too much about my relatives other than my mother and father I know that sounds selfish and mean, but that is basically what it is my aunt called me a psychopath well You know what they say about homophobes, if they make the best LGBTQ people, and that is the same thing with people who call other people psychopath, they usually make themselves the best psychopath on the planet or sociopath, and I found a lot of dirt on my aunt like she was always attacking my mother and other horrible things verbally I mean As well as calling my mother a fucking drunk well that was might be true that my mother was a bit of a fish, but you didn’t have to call her a fucking drunk in front of everyone and then calling me a whore on my birthday that one was my favourite! My aunt literally likes emotions and empathy and I can literally feel the energy offer. That is not very good. It is very interesting. What kind of energy someone gives off she never gave very much of a good energy. None of my distant relatives gave very much of a vibe to begin with a either shithead or psychopath!

Also, I’m going to be spending time at Christmas with my friends instead of dealing with my shithead relatives who are pretty much got awful people as I said I had one not So good brother to try to hurt me and another brother who tries to control me and it’s kind of not exactly my cup of tea to deal with this shit so I just decided that I was going to forget the actual whatever the hell that side show was. It certainly was not a family for Christmas last year and it turned out to be a booming success so I’m gonna do the same thing this year! 

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