So I was watching Malcom in the middle this morning after a long hard time writitng (no so hard time) to my penpals, I saw the characters watching battle bots! Ironic it’s a thrusday so this will be a throwback Thursday to the high light of my child…….watching battle bots with my father! You see he isn’t as much of an asshole asi think! There were so fun times that made me. Smile! When I was in grade 8 I used to watch battle bots with my father and bet which bot would win! This was when bits were not a pain in the ass on line! But instead, the were entertaining! Even found it on YouTube to bring me back to the time when I was actually out side of school!
This was something I enjoyed watching emencely with my father! I like the creativity of the different battle bots that came around the one that I enjoyed the most was nightmare, and the other biohazard! I was enjoying watching either biohazard or nightmare win, I also was put my magic the gathering cards with my father he would end giving the back to at the end of a show! It was pretty interesting that I would be able to let seem steamy by cheering on night mare or biohazard! That being said we started watching it in September 2002, and after the 2003 it was taken off air! Which was sad? But I enjoyed the memories of the show and what memories it formed between me and my father! To be said that was when of the last times my father and I got along since I first started my period! I think of my father as well as my mother quite a bit, especially after my mom entered the spirit world! I remember the good times I had like battle bots! Seeing the show on Malcom in the middle was surreal and then I looked into YouTube trying to recapture my happiness that was non-school related childhood!
I loved this show! It is hard to remember the good times with ptsd! But I was able to retrieve from Malcom in the middle, I was back on being a battle bots fans! There were other interesting robots in the actual show but the ones that stood out were biohazard and nightmare! I also watched many thing this my father and I watched , for example final destination the first! Which was a freaking good movie! And I would think great memories of the childhood out side of school. Also after battle bots was done we started watching movies the we would rent! That was a hit or a miss, sometimes something I enjoyed my dad didn’t and vice versa! But my interest would be to build a robot for the group home that I live in and put it on battle bots! But I have noooo clue how to build one! As I would treasure these tv shows with my father because, I would be bullied in school, that being said I was in a catholic School, where they had 100% tolerance on bullying! More over the teachers would participate in the torment if I remember and then they complain about my behaviour to my parents! That being said, I still remeber telling my mother exactly. What happened in holy name of Mary school and she said the
had she known she would have hired a lawyer and got me out of that hell hole!
I am thinking that instead of a flower or what ever for my father I was going to get nightmare the battle bot to be tattooed on me for the spring! I thing that would be a great tribute to my father, before his body goes on him! I still remember my father said that he wanted to be escorted to the spirit world prematurely because even one was against him! Was a few weeks after I escorted my mom to the spirit realm….. a year after her death! But in stead of remembering the idea of having to escort my friends and Family to the spirit world I decide to look at the bright side which was that fact that I had a good time out side of the ridiculous school! Well other than my aunt, my moms sister who is a fucking psycho and sociopath, that being stated! She will not be earth bound for her behaviour in life! But I would rather remeber my immediate family my mom and dad! I know if he were strong and still watching battle bots that he’d except me as genderqueer female! More on that in a nother entery! Let’s say my mom said I was very special and I thought that being who I am in the first place would be a good thing! So I list my self as a non binary!
Let’s said I would rather be what the idiots called me: freak, geek and a weeb and use those words to impower my self and trample on the with kindness! That being said, when when I’m at the group home, I told to kill with kindness instead of warfare fast, that way, with aggravate, the bullies, or any of nine people a lot more than just flipping them off or otherwise. Even though I do have on my hand to semicolons on each middle finger, one on each middle finger that being said, that in case someone is being exceptionally ridiculous and being completely unreasonable, and I just passed Andrea around them not being said that would be used for someone in my house. It would be use for someone who is being a complete Weeb! And a bad one at that! Also I am happy to have and am living the life that I live now……….if I would I would do it all over again the exact same because there were some good parts like battle bots, and stargazing! Even the sh*tty parts, I would do again!
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