December 9, 2023 Late P.M.

So I did this artwork for a friend family, Donated a TV to my group home. I don’t know how how big the TV is except that it’s pretty big. That being said, I did this drawing drawing or digital drawing if you would have the big dipper and night scene with the fiery Northern lights that everyone has been talking about lately. As well as a perfect big damper that I’ve done. That being said is very interesting I use a different Application this time time called Art book, which was very interesting and has all these different ideas for brushes as you can see there’s a lot of star brushes and nature related brushes that were very interesting and I use the crystal brush as the northern lights. That was very interesting. Indeed I might use this more often than not when it comes to my idea of artwork. When I need special effects! Then I ended up getting praised for this particular piece of art work. I was just doing what I thought was nice and God praise and And said that it was going to be printed properly and that it was going to be in a frame and everything which is great. I didn’t think I worked that hard on it. I was just doing what I was supposed to do. The idea of this artwork has a lot of memories to me, as I have a mentioned in the aforementioned PM post from today. When I used to go to look at the Christmas lights with my father, that was always the beloved thing I used to do when I was in middle school too grade 7 to 8. Grade 7 and eight at the time in grade 8, I used to get into a pile of crap getting into fights and other stuff, not my fault but the other not knows his kids! So that was the last time I did the Christmas lights with my father was on grade 7. That being said, I haven’t been very happy and grade age. I will tell you exactly what I was called and kind of ridiculous to be mentioned to be cold this! The r world For my PTSD as well as spaz out for my PTSD, which was not exactly exactly nice terms to call someone who just got out of a war zone about 12 years ago at the time was 2003. You really should have more respect these kids should have more respect for other children as well as for themselves because they ended up getting beat half the time And respect for other children, so they know empathy and that the idea That other people have a right to exist. These idiots were my friends, so I never got to see the Christmas lights with my father on the eighth grade of my Scholastic career that being said, that was the last time I ever saw the Christmas lights and the Big Dipper! That being said, I designed this drawing exactly to what I was hoping on the way home. Which was very interesting. Indeed I was able to draw this with a lot of detail brushes. The art book has a lot of Different tracing projects, but I didn’t think of using it for the actual artwork itself, which was very interesting indeed. I found that this was a lot more of a labour of love than anything else! So I got out my Apple pen when I got home after taking a shower and dealing with some personal things. It was able to get this beauty done!

There are being said when I was also fiddling on my iPad and I was looking on my Deviant art! Which is an app like a non-online art gallery some people post some really erotic stuff which is kind of sad, but then there’s some people like me who like to draw or do actual decent artwork! That being said, when I was posting the picture that I mentioned in the above paragraph, I was able to know that there was also a gaming company who said that my artwork was very reminiscent of their gaming art style, and that they wanted me to work for them, although they work in Vancouver I work in Vancouver. No I can’t because I have an expired passport just because of the fact that I have to go on the goddamn airplane! Would be a pain for me! So I ended up having a turn them down, but I left the message and I hope you The joy when I read this message. It was very interesting.!

This is what it said!

Though I have enough jobs I am a YouTuber I do that for free with my friend. I also am an artist and an author I do that for scratch I don’t do that very much for money. I don’t care for that as well as I clean and I’ll be cleaning hopefully if I can three times a week if I can help it. That being said this is the letter of wickid666Your work resonated with our team, Kayem games, brings you new project, open positions, Junior, middle and senior, two artist and 3-D artist as well as a concept artist as well as artist director, lead artist, senior, and OT artist. Please review the file yada yada yada……. The fact that a gaming company asked me not as a gambling, but as in video games had asked me to work for them was pretty interesting. On the last I’m not tooting my own horn, as this was very interesting nonetheless.  But I had to turn them down because of the idea of travelling is a pain in the ass for me. I just don’t like the idea of travelling or having a deal with airports unless it’s within the confines of the covers of a book. That being said, I am done with travelling or air travel that is, I just rather not deal with it anymore except for with reading! So they will not get an answer from me, but it was very interesting to see what they had to say that they wanted me to be in that field period of video game design, which was very interesting but I couldn’t do it because I would be pulling my hair out most of my time! That and I didn’t know if it was gonna be a online job or in person job. God forbid if it was in person, so I couldn’t help dealing with the idea of the actual goddamn traveling. I just don’t like travelling as much as most people like travelling I just don’t deal with it very well unless it’s my car then that’s fine but if it’s not it’s not gonna be going very far my body that is Because of my passport, I decided I wasn’t going to start travelling anymore and besides a pain in the ass and a pain in the wallet to start travelling and to start places that are far. That would be the work of my ancestors is not the work of me. I am more of a static person and nomadic . That being said, my ancestors were no man from the central  asia, Himalayas, as well as, Pakistan, Afghanistan, Iran, and Saudi Arabia, as well as India. That being stated, I’d rather just stay at where I am and say home is where I put my foot! Despite my nomadic DNA, I am quite static when it comes to travelling I don’t like travelling as much anymore as I used to as a kid. It just didn’t give me the sense of home or belonging as I thought it would. When I was younger, even though I was travelling with my parents to all that say Cuba or something! Even though it was in my blood, it just didn’t seem like it should be in my blood because I didn’t like the idea of having to go from terminal eight to terminal B and all that jazz and getting lost in the airport and cursing and swearing half the time I’ve was complained about about my party that was was at airport. That being said, I’d rather not deal with that kind of sh*t show again! 

So that is why I couldn’t take a video game job if anything I would be a tattoo artist in my hometown where I belong and hopefully I’ll stay within the confines of the county period or the Ottawa area where I don’t have to worry about anything except for my idiot brothers!