Thursday, December 7, 2023

December 7, 2023 A.M.


 When I was 17 I rediscovered a band that I enjoyed, which was the insane clown posse. Something I use to listen to when I was about six years old and was a fanatic when I was six years old when I was 17 I was able to go back to the insane clown policy and discover other interesting Psychopathic artists that are not so psychopathic! Represents to me as creativity and being able to be yourself and being able to not feel sorry for yourself to be kind to yourself even though they’re music lyrics lyrics are pretty violent. That being said, I would rather listen to them when I am having a crap day Then going around feeling sorry for myself and moping around and then not doing anything. I’d rather pick up my Apple pen or something to that effect and go and enjoy life and creativity even if I’m angry or upset. I do creative things. I’ve always been down with a clown since I was six years old but it really showed when I was 17 years old 11 years later ! I was at that time to be interested in the Juggalo subculture, or the being a fan of the insane clown policy. I am female so I would be more of a juggalette! I’ve been down with a clown since I was about six or five years old. Because the lyrics more or less said, the exact same thing with my mother, said to me when she gave me those water paints. Actually, watercolours I mean, and they actually help me get through my temper tantrum. This is basically the same thing as that creativity and being a self is what makes it better off as a human being. Even though they language, and sometimes there artwork is a little Questionable sometimes sometimes not questionable  not as in sex! But as violent. I find very interesting, and they’re very good to listen to. I would rather listen to the insane clown posse. Then let’s say stupid Taylor, Swift, who is really not very much than wallpaper. As Marilyn Manson would say another artist who mention that people who don’t do very much or just wallpaper, trying to fit in with society. I don’t find that fitting in is a good idea. I’ve always been down with a clown, and with their ideals and their philosophy. You can ask my mother when she was pulling her hair out when I was 13 years old! I remember her asking me to fit in with somebody or a bunch of somebody’s. I didn’t wanna fit in with the people that I was in school with because they were horrible human beings, and they were making me feel sorry for myself right up till grade 9 that was. When I was in grade 8, it was really shit show! That being said it was, when my friend started to turn on me when they decided not Not to deal with me that my uniqueness was a threat to them and everything else. I found that to be shameful and disturbing. Also, since it was the advent of 911, it was also the time when they started to harass me about my skin colour and the shape of my face and what have you it was kind of disturbing, but when I was in high school, I discovered the insane clown posse philosophy and was able to get back on my feet right away. Emotionally speaking!

Now I know the amount of haters or bullies that I have makes me more success Even though some people would not agree with that Good thing that you end up with a lot of problems with the fact that I had enough bullies me me thinking then I was worth something a lot more if people were jealous of me in the first place, or were hating on me, because they were a lot easier to understand if they were not feeling all the greatest and were trying to make someone else feel worse. That being said, I have been able to follow that philosophy, if someone is a jackass! Usually they don’t feel good about themselves or their situation and they’re making themselves feel better by tearing you down I find like my friends in grade used to tear me down all the time because I had an IQ of 196 as well as I had enough talent in the world to squander all of them. They didn’t really like the idea of being upstage by a coloured person. A coloured person being an ethnic person in this case is not a black person. That being said, I was very angry at my friends for a long time, but I use a lot of creativity to help myself through this process of trying to forgive them. still, I try to forgive them and it’s still hard and I grab the apple pen from time to time to make something that is worth money, i.e. tattoo or something that is important to me like these artwork I’ve put up here that being said is important to follow what your talents are they are the ones that are going to get you out of the situation, real friends, or your family as well as  if you choose to have a relatives they can be your family too. I choose not to have any relatives because of certain issues I had with my aunt and one brother I had who was a real jack ass! Let’s just say my aunt Is a controlling, narcissistic and psychopathic, as well as a sadistic person who would love to call your name is just to see you write in the name. That being said, I don’t really like my aunt to be honest with you because of her psychopathy! As well as her triad trades that kind of took me off in the first place. That being said, I don’t really talk very much about my legal family. My family is my friends and my friends are in my family and that is the way it stays for the simple fact is, I am juggalette! They said it’s a beautiful way of saying things that may have been said in a violent manner in their music, but it is very important to know what their philosophy ultimately is is that your friends or your family in the end. Your relatives can choose to have you or deal with you or not. Your friends choose to deal with you from the very end.  That’s why I listen to the insane clown policy. I know some people consider juggalo as criminals. But I have yet to have a record except for the vynil Variety where I used to play my record player on but other than that I don’t have a paper record or anything that stating that I’m an  asshole! 

To me, being a criminal is to hurt someone and to take advantage of someone very much so I don’t find the juggalos have any intention on taking advantage of people their songs have more or less said that taking advantage of people or using people or doing anything negative with people is strictly forbidden and if you do bad things happen to you as in karma. They say what their current idea karma is, but I think that the idea of karma is that you end up paying for it in the end mantle or physical ailments at the end of your life. Or during your life that is not too pleasant. That being said, I don’t wish these things on anyone. I just try to pick up my Apple pen and just try to draw my problems away and try to do something that’s worth my time and effort that’s worth actually yelling at or whatever I don’t decide to say well I wish some something something on someone  because it’s not right to do so sometimes I’d like to ring my exes neck but instead I rather just ride or draw or do something that is worth my time and effort, and then forget that he even exist and go on with my life. That being said, that’s just an example of why I decide not to go after people. When they can go after themselves  in advertently karma. And I’d rather not wish anything of that on anyone. Not even that person who made me think that I should not be non-binary anymore because of her Ways!

To be Down with the clown as you’re not supposed to take anything like a female dog instead you are supposed to be able to be who you are and not let anyone tear you down this meeting. I am still still gonna be non-binary. I’m still stick to my Pronouns and stick with them being down with the clown till the day I die. That being said, I’d rather not deal with the hatred that people pull on me. Instead, I just say well I’m just worth enough calories for someone to be angry about and I’m happy that way to be worth something! It’s kind of hard to explain Manson said the molar enemies you have the more value you have on this planet look at Martin Luther King. He did not have very many friends on his journey for civil rights, but he’s managed to get his job done in life. And that’s what was more important screw the haters.  As it should be. I find the more haters you have the more likely you will be successful in your talents and achievements! and let me tell you my exes a notch on my success as he was a real jackass to begin with. He did not like my tattoos he didn’t like piercing and like anything of that matter. Which was gonna be his loss and will be his loss, but that is beside the point just using him as an example. 

I find that good people have a lot of enemies for no damn reason. Like the insane clown cause he is hated because of their positive message through their violent lyrics. But that beside the point they’re good people.I think that the more jerks you attract and ignore……the more Bountiful you are in the first place! 

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