Saturday, November 4, 2023

November 4, 2023 P.M.

 I could’ve written as a little earlier too, but this afternoon I was busy cleaning up my room as well as helping clean vans in my group home! That being said, I ended up getting $10 and then I ended up deciding I was going to go to the darn thrift store in my village and I ended up finding a lot of good stuff. One was a Book on wicca. Wicca is another nature base religion that does not believe in the devil. Also, I got some shoes and a couple of sets of dvds which war of the small Ville series I have to get the other two sets of Smallville before I can go around and start watching them so that being said yes, I forget the other first two seasons are in that I’ve been pretty good I’ve been cleaning my room as well to make room for most of my new stuff that I got at the thrift store also, I got a Lord of the rings like a figurine with a candle in it won’t be using the candle, but will be using the figurine as a display only that being said, I’m very interested in trying to find the Lord of the rings that’s what brought me to the thrift store because I was able to find the Lord of the rings than but didn’t get them when I thought about that or saw them. Which was kind of a sh*tty mistake on my part, but if I did get them, I would’ve found the figurines, the shoes, the necklace and the DVDs that I liked. Therefore, I probably would’ve been devoid of what I have now. Also, when I was cleaning out the vans, it was very interesting because it was almost like early spring morning what it was about 6 to 10° outside which was pretty good Celsius I am talking about because I do live in Canada! It was very interesting to work without a code, and I didn’t have to swear as much as I thought so. That being said, I was very happy about my fines at the thrift store, except they were not exactly the lord of the rings, except for the figurines I got, which I love very much. I also got a Bollywood light necklace. I can show you that one day I wanna take a selfie. Right now I’m in my PJs. 

Then I ended up having after my dinner was done having some of my Halloween candy and then ended up being very hungry for some shepherds pie. There’s only one sticky thing about shepherds pie and that is what I have to have catch up with a red catch up or is she not going to turn out very good for me. It’s always been like that for me even since I was a little kid and when I was bodybuilding as a teenager, it was just something that I would rather continue doing ketch up with shepherds pie. The two complement each other, and then I ended up talking to my friend about respect not that I have been disrespectful in anyway, but I was saying about my Menzies that I had to be the woman and have to have a responsibility and guys usually have the phone. He ended up saying that no man have to learn about respect. Because they usually put their hands on everybody or anything, and then call the names and stuff like that which ties into my last blog, and three. Which I find it very interesting that men have to be very respectful, but it is true but also, we have to be respectful as women to to everyone else or non-binary as well to everyone else because that is just the way it is it the two-way street or in the sky in threeway Street if you are a non-binary. Respect is more than a one-way street you have to given cage and stuff like that and you should not be giving people shit for her DNA or the religion for their orientation on gender! As I said before!

Right now I’m just wondering who is going to be talking me to my tattoo appointment on Monday and I’m very interested in finding out who is going to be. I just hope it’s the right person. That I’m hoping it is going to be. Other than that I haven’t really much done very much and Sam have dinner and cleaning the bugger out of everything.

And tomorrow you can imagine I’ll be cleaning again at my job, which is to clean and then I will be done with cleaning for the hall rest of the week and then I will except for my bathing. Of course I have to bathe…… for it is my ritual that I do every day is clean and days. That being said, I do a lot of that every day if I can help it. If I don’t with the ritual is broken. I also shave my head for a second time in a month because I was getting tired of the hair that was growing on my head and boy was there a lot that I had to shave off I had to use the bathtub as a receptacle for my hair and then ended up flashing it all down the drain. That being said, I hope I don’t have to do that again soon! But with the nature of my hair, I am most likely going to be shaving it very soon, and will be in mash quantities again. That is not exactly my strong suit is dealing with exactly a mass amount of hair.

There are three different types of hair if you’re wondering, where is the thin Caucasoid hair from the Caucasians in Europe whatever Caucasian age and then there is Negroid for blacks who have the nice curly hair and then you have the very sick aggravating ass and I am sick and then she hair from the Mongoloids went to the Asians have with her dog and thick and you can’t do very much about it, except let it grow out or shave it! I am Caucasoid in my facial features but as far as my hair is concerned, and my DNA is concerned, I am mongoloid, being of Asian dissent, because I have very thick hair, and I also have very soft skin as I remember, trying to pierce my own nose. Second time that I ended up having a hell of a time here, saying it, because of the thick skin, and then end up with a nice month-long in the section because of the gauge of the nose ring, which was kind of stupid on my part!

What happened was there are used to buy a piercing kit from Amazon, which was a Don’t move on my part dope meaning don’t do it! I first started off with this app them, and then that turned out well and then I did the other day which turned out well, and then I try to do my medusa piercing, which ended in disaster and suffering! I remember having to take even the septum piercing out that time and letting it grow out or get a tetanus shot and that was not exactly my fun part of my life so I had to throw everything out that I knew was body piercing related at the time, and my whole grew in and now I was able to get my septum pierced again by a professional, which was a lie. Easier to take care of then doing it yourself I find do it yourself means you also have to clean it yourself and you get pissed off even easier that way then if you let a professional do it, it would be a lot easier quicker faster, and I would be a lot easier to take care of in the long run to have a professional take care of your piercings and tattoos I think. After that sh*t show! I never did my own tattoos, but I did have the professionals do my tattoos in the first place  and it made me think that this is easy to take care of because I didn’t have to do the deed in the first place! And I was happy with my tattoos! Also, I didn’t have to go to the fuck in the hospital because of the fact that I want to a professional for my septum, as well as my many tattoos. That being said, I’d rather spend copious amounts of money on a professional doing what ever needs to be done body or otherwise instead of dealing with it myself and damning the consequences, which can usually mean that he end up in the hospital or worst dad. I was lucky I just got out the hospital, but that was an asinine part for me. I still remember the day you about when I got that Medusa done myself, and it was a real shit show. I never wanna go through that again being said that oh you pierce your self again and you’re going to the hospital.  So I went and a half an hour is not exactly happy about the whole situation and then at the hospital I  was more or less having what you would call, and behavior, because COVID-19 waiting hours or just plain sh*t! Also part of the consequences of doing my own piercings on a weekly basis was that I ended up with COVID-19 mom’s house for that because my immune system is sh*t…… so what are you suggest buying those do it your own piercing kits no I would say damn the responsibilities and do what you have to do to get the money and then get a professional today or I would not say also not to go working in the streets just to get a professional job done on your tattoo or piercing, but as I said, damn the responsibilities as in, take them and go with them and take care of them! I would not want anyone to buy a self piercing kit. That is just an excuse the terminology r*t*rded! Noticed that I put that word in sensor mold, because I know that word is very sensitive noches to myself. What do other people I remember being called that word as well as a spaz out for my PT asked me and I wasn’t exactly my friend point my life instead I ended up being the ultimate aggression trying to defend myself!

But anyone who does diy is r*tarded in my opinion,   to me, that word does not mean mentally or physically disabled but means that you downright stupid and ignorant, of your self and others and just don’t f*cking care! For example, my mental health workers that I have now Kassandra is also that word because she just doesn’t care about the people she deals with on a daily basis I find she is very aggravating in the staff. She is not exactly my prayer sunshine or a mental health worker. I would’ve many times have complained about her on many times for her, trying to assimilate me in the western culture as well as to get me to believe that what the doctors in the holocaust was actually a good witch and sad inside more raged towards her than anything else. How can you say shit stupid things or do so if stupid things in the first place is beyond me I rarely talk to her now, because I just can’t stand her and I’m also doing better. I think if she were in my life, I’d be going tail spinning through the sky and ending up smashing into the ground in the pieces. She is not exactly my cup of tea said she’s just going to incite more problems and then to help. She’s done more damage and my mother I don’t know how many times she wanted this woman gone for pissing me off!

Enough about that I am very happy to say that I might be going to a psychiatrist one day they just see how my progress is going on where I am on my PTSD journey. I think I’m doing well, but sometimes I snap of people that being said that she usually in the morning when I’m really not interested in dealing with stuff when I deal with Jennifer and able to handle things a lot easier like they suggested we do the van this morning and I said no I’m gonna wait till after lunch and then I can be a fully awake thank you! That was one opinion! I am very happy that I am doing a lot better if I keep the right crystals in my pocket as well as take my meds. I haven’t had any problems except for last time during around the Halloween time when I was having nightmares because of the veil sinning, and God knows what was happening in the night! Also, remember was the last nightmare I had a had a demon jump out beneath my bed I know it’s beneath my bed a bunch of crap boxes and wags that’s about it other than that I don’t find very much of a demon down there, because I did look under there one time. That being said yeah, that was just a nightmare caused by the thinning of the veil! I hate that sending over the veil so much that drives me completely bonkers sometimes and sometimes I act like a complete ass at bingo! Hopefully with the veil thickening my temper and patience with thicken too!

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