November 12, 2023 Late A.M.

So I woke up this morning like it was fine. But I still felt like sh*t! And how to see guardians somehow. I was just afraid that  the guy would lose interest in me! That is the most painful part of it all is that I’m afraid that he’s gonna lose interest. And that he may find someone else! This is the most painful thing to point where I threw out my back! I’d rather just try to get through the day but it’s a nice sunny day so that’s one good thing but I’m still alive so that’s another thing but I’m not too happy about my situation. I’d like to really be aggressive to someone! Especially if it’s someone who’s causing all this sh*t show in the first place. Thank God I’m a peaceful nature but I just feel like I just wanna snap at this point. And I rather snap at someone who deserves that I don’t know who it might be but someone is at fault for this! I tried to talk to someone about this I might try my mental health worker who is already a jackass to begin with! That being said, I’ll just say my relationship is triggering me. Which is kind of true as I have a fear that he might lose interest! I don’t know why everyone wants me to stay in this, but I don’t know either is kind of strange, and I’d rather just get out of the emotional guantanamo all before I can can seriously hurt! That being said, I have not had any bad dreams or anything, because I was to the point where my brain didn’t care at this point! I might end up making a cryptid this morning! And I thinking that adding to my mythos will help me!

I am trying to be like Trevor Henderson, the horror artist, who Popularized, siren head, and I should say. I would be very interested in seeing what creature I can come up that can be popular eyes, but I am. That being said is very interesting when you’re down in the dumpster, create a monster out of your apple pen, and be done with the emotions then in there. That being said, I have my apple pen with me and I plan on making another cryptid for my mythos! Most of these Cryptids, that I think I’ve heard of that are more Internet based were more war based at one point, and they were more less invented by people with PTSD, except for a cartoon cat! That being said, I’m very interested in Cryptids and monitors and seeing what they can do to help make me feel better by making me create one out of the blue if you were to say that! Last time I felt bad I was able to create a detailed picture of a Cryptid. That was pretty good that started. My mythos!

I will tell you more about this monster just say what he looks like he looks like a mid skin walker and wendigo! That being said, he has more wind to go than anything else like the ancient Cryptid, by the indigenous people of Canada, the Wendigo was created to scare people from leaving Their homes in the wintertime, and then they ended up with this thing called Wendigo syndrome, which was where they were very violent, and it would even has much much as eat, eachother! It is a mental illness that is based on the Cryptid! It is very interesting to read up on these Cryptids, and some of the things that They can do. Like I’m can’t remember what the wind can do but other than eight people, but it is very much very agile thing if I remember correctly! I would rather Get a Cryptid tattoo, which is like a monster. Which would be very interesting not the blue lagoon, monster monster, or Sasquatch but something out of my own had some there’s a lot more terrifying than the thing for the blue lagoon or the Sasquatch. I’m talking about things like moth, man, siren head, or something to that effect! I am very much interested in Cryptids as they have either been invented by someone with my condition or something similar and then they come out in history and then culture and they become a permanent fixture in that culture. It’s very interesting.

The fact that I am creating my own Cryptids via the Apple pen that I was given was very interesting on the last. I don’t know what to call this one or what this one will look like, but it’ll be very interesting on the last to make this creepypasta! Some of them might be realistic, like skins, or some of them might be a little bit more out of the ordinary Cryptids. But basically a Cryptid is an animal or monster that is rarely seen or unknown to mankind. ISome of them might be realistic, like skins, or some of them might be a little bit more out of the ordinary Cryptids. But basically a Cryptid is a animal or monster that is rarely seen or unknown to mankind. I can tell you one story I had with a Cryptid fish. 

OK so I was going to go Fishing one day at a friends place. Which was fine and I caught a few big ones or it caught my ball and worm and would not let go the next thing you know where snap the Rod was broken twice. I was always saying sorry because of the road being broken but I wasn’t the one catching the worm and breaking my rod. That being said, I think it was a Cryptid face that I had found twice. Of fish that is not very known to mankind, or could’ve been supposedly extinct, but not extinct to begin with. It’s very interesting to see where your mind will go, but I am pretty sure it was a crypt, and something that either thought to be extinct or mysterious. Because what kind of thing has that kind of power to destroy a beautiful fishing rod to begin with That’s my question I think it is more of a Cryptid than anything else there was swimming in there that’s what made me start to believe other than seeing siren head twice! That got me interested in fishing, but it also got me interested in seeing if I can find other Cryptids An advertently, which means that I had found some thing that I didn’t mean to find but it happened anyway like when I went to the Thrift store the other day and found a gold stone rang. A second gold stone ring that I was thinking of getting. And I got it. I did not see it it saw me and then I saw the first time as if it was trying to find me and it did.!

All I know is I found a ring and then when I realized it was gold stone, that was the one that I had to get. It found me I didn’t find it. That being said it was asking for me to find it. For me to find it in the first place, I’ve heard of many things like that happening when you have good energy like my friend Who found a deck of druid cards, but was it really him finding the druid cards of them finding him! This is the kind of thing that happens from time to time and it was the same damn thing with my tattoo design that I have now which was the spider eye. That being said, I find this very unusual that things, People are drawn to me and find me when they When I think they find me. But they do I find gems and friends or gems of things that are very interesting. That’s how you know you have good energy!

If something likes your energy Or someone likes your energy they will find you. That’s what I found out more often than not and then then I was ended up taking an online reading. That being said it was for free, so there was no scam involved! And to be told, I was told that I was unheard of Uncommon. That being said, I take that as a compliment that I emanate the prophet Energy as well as I’m able to make a big change in the world if I put my mind to it. That being said, I’m gonna show you the images of the actual reading, which was very interesting. I’ve never had such a thing where I’ve been told that I was a sensitive soul, and that I was uncommon in the beginning! Almost a rarity if it were the case. That is very strange. I guess that’s why things like that ring found me in the first place! It is interesting to read up on this wicca And new stuff that is actually very interesting. It actually mirrors life more than our i find because it actually shows what really there! Then it does with our art manipulate nature can’t!   That being said, I’ve had stones and crystals that have found me either on Amazon or other otherwise. There was one time I was walking around a forest, called fully mountain, and found nearly tripped over this lump of different quartz.! It was smoky, quartz, clear quartz, as well as rose quartz, which is very interesting and I found that it found me because I nearly tripped over it and I was able to get it. It was worth about 180 bucks my first tattoo, It is in stone. That being said, I kept that for a long time until my goddamn house had a flood! 

I still try to find another crystal like that, but as I said, it’s very hard to do so because that one found me it’s just very unusual that these things will find you from time to time. And that you end up having something that is worth a lot of money. This is not very unusual for me as I have a rare energy to find rare things that people like to pitch out! That being said, I am very disappointed in some people that they would throw away good stuff when they shouldn’t do that. It’s like you know that is very rare and I have it now thank you goodbye! Sometimes people should have an authenticator app or something like that or something matter eyes, and would notice that there was some kind of signature on it or something that actually showed that it was actually worth something. I ended up getting a book one day! And this book had a bunch of rare documents that I’ve never seen before one from McDonnell Douglas, the other from a football team, European football, as well as other interesting oddities. It was very interesting to see this and go through history! That being said, I was the one that always finds things that are rare or do they find me! Hmmmmmmm!

I know that I like to find these rare items. And then I end up being very happy to find something that is worth a lot of money. That someone is stupid enough to throw out in the first place. It’s like he don’t know you just lost something that is worth such and such amount of money, I’m not wanting to be money oriented but I am someone who likes to find rare things ……. Picker If you would someone who enjoys finding things are good things that people throw out in the first place that are perfectly good! That being said, I don’t have my own YouTube channel or my own TV show Elena the picker or anything like that but I do have something that is involved a lot that I keep these items. Some people think I’m a hoarder but really I’m not because these items are really rare! I am a Canadian picker. If you were to call with that someone who looks for the rare things when people throw them out in the first place although it’s fine it’s kind of aggravating to see that people throw the stuff out! I would never throw anything out that had any historical value to it because it’s just the way I was Was meant to be. I don’t believe in  wasting things and wasting money on something that you’re just gonna waste in the first place! So you shouldn’t really be spending money on things that might seem cool and then the next you know I’m the one that adopts it! I have found many things along the sidewalk that were perfectly good things and people had thrown them out. I said this is a shame! This is just another case of energy attracting writer, things or people that are very interesting that no one else seems to care about. It’s very interesting that my energy attracts the strange and rare things in life! The same thing with people!