November 10, 2023 A.M.

 When I woke up this morning, I woke up with a nightmare as usual. But I also ended up deciding to make some Cryptids. That’s not what is causing my PTSD nightmares is a part of the healing process to end up having someone get a little aggravating more so than it does get better before hand. That being said, it’s not the drawing of the Cryptids at fault. I am able to make a lot of different Cryptids. I made to this morning because I was kind of in a foul humour because of certain things that were out of my control. That being said, I’m not gonna tell you exactly what they were but this is why me and people like Trevor Henderson create I think create Cryptid monsters and creepy pastas because it’s a lot easier To be creative and instead of being mopey, and to be sad about something. I find that important that is to be creative instead of to be mopey or self-destruct over in whatever you might be doing. This is why I’d rather pick up my apple pen or a paint brush when dealing with rough motions at the time. I don’t even do deep breathing sometimes I do that, but the other times I just create my way out of my problems !

That being said, I’m very interested in creating different Cryptids, like being the female version of Trevor Henderson, who Is a very famous horror artist who created these who more popular rise siren head I should say! I’ll talk to you about the origins assignment he had some other time I think I did already when it was created by people with PTSD war related PTSD. That being said I had war related PTSD or have I don’t know I’ll see what the psychiatrist has to say about that when I go to see him/her! Other than that, I am pretty much similar to a normal person, but I do create Cryptids to help Wayne my negative emotions off my mind. This is why I did that it started off with when I felt really crappy about my adoptive brother! Took off from there. Whether I get any followers or not, I don’t know but it’s very interesting what goes on in your mind and then you can create something out of it!   It does be taking a lot of medication but it does need you still have to take your medication in my opinion! Speaking of when I choked on this morning!

This is what I created out of a Web tune character. I will be dumping on that particular web series soon, but anyways, this is basically my idea of a female Hellraiser you know from clive Barker, Hellraiser  Do you know the horror movies with the guy with the pinhead. That’s very interesting. I’ve watched it before. Never really scared of the living. The Jesus out of me, But did get me thinking about other things about horror and other things like that that being said, that was a very good movie didn’t really give me any nightmares. So I decided to do a tribute crypt called Hellraiser for Clive barker! I have read some of his books. They weren’t all that good, but his movies were pretty good in my opinion. That being said, I’d rather read his movies or watch his movies. I should say, then end up reading some of his books that were kind of dry! Are used to like Hellbound, which was the origins of Hellraiser. The Hellraiser movies. I enjoyed leading that a lot when I was younger like five years ago or 10 years ago I believe I found that in a bookstore and found that very interesting and wanted to read that and found myself interested in going to Read it again again but soon I read it too much and it got boring this time around when I started to read it at my home. So it wasn’t exactly a good book to start up but it was active when it was good. But when I started to read it when I was 34 years old my current age now I found that I was kind of dry and boring and repetitive what was going on in my head that made me think that this book was good was beyond me. I’m more of a Stephen King fan like the stand and it it! Those are my jams, as well as Trevor Henderson’s Cryptids as well pretty interesting. I’d like to read more about Trevor Henderson’s artwork and stuff and see which ones I may want to get tattooed. I know it probably spoiler alert, going to be siren head! I’m sorry for the spoiler alert, but that is the case! I won’t be doing any more tomorrow, because of remembrance Day. I have a respect for the soldiers, the sacrifice lives and mental health for the betterment of the world as well as society and freedom. That being said, I’d rather not do any particularly any cryptic or creepy pasta drawing tomorrow it’s just a choice I’d rather make for the people who didn’t make it or the people who ended up in the hospital because of the wars they had to high!

When I was drawing these, I get ideas from Twitter as well as ideas from anything. I lay my hands on even a flower can be a cryptid as far as I’m concerned. it’s very easy to create anything into a crypt that I did want out of a cartoon character in the other, out of punk rocker, that I kind of did, which was kind of creepier than the cartoon character. That was very good but as I said tomorrow, I will not be doing very many creepy passes. I might do one but not too. Because of the idea that tomorrow is day, and I want to be respectful to the soldiers who passed away in the wars, or gave up their mental health for freedom and society, as well as the betterment of the human race. So I won’t be doing very many creepy pastas! That being said they will be on my mind. The creepy past is what I think of. I don’t know, but I do need off anyway, so why not tomorrow?   I found that it was very interesting to be creative with my post traumatic stress disorder even though I was never a soldier you don’t know what PTSD can come destroy you. It can come out the most Monday thing that could be very traumatic to your brain, if you susceptible to it. I was too susceptible to it, but ended up with it because of the here, horror of my past and this year asinine behaviour of human kind that was Catholic school. That being said, I was not very happy about that ended up with Korbin and complex PTSD, as well as I ended up with Asperger and ADHD. The ADHD and Asperger‘s was caused by genetics. The PTSD was basically caused by, the horrors that I went through the atrocities, I went through as a baby as well as stupidity of bullying and schoolyards that I had to go though! As I said, it doesn’t take very much cause PTSD has a very traumatic and very disturbing thing to you and the next thing you know you end up with it! No one deserves to have this assigning disease I should say! 

Today is a non-eventful day. I might admit I might do another creepy pasta for this afternoon. I don’t know it all depends on my mood. But I hope that there’ll be a lot of interesting things to talk about. I do believe that there are some interesting things going on like crafts and stuff but other than that I’m not too enthused about this day. Not that’s gonna be a bad day or anything it’s just not exactly a sharp and exciting day! Also, next week supposedly you’re gonna be able to see that Saturn is losing its rings slowly but surely it’s gonna take aeons for them to be completely gone from the planet Saturn but also you’re going to see the toolbox from the space station that the astronauts forgot. And you can see them more. I’m planning on doing that next week and seeing if Saturns deteriorating rings are still visible to this earth. If not well, I’m gonna have a sh*t fit! For the simple Reason is that my favourite planet other than Jupiter and Uranus is Saturn because it’s particularly peculiar with the ringings. The fact that I have a few millennia is going to be gone. The rings pisses me off! I did not know about that but anyways, that was a good conversation please!

Also I a, watching the show grey’s anatomy which is good!