October 23, 2023 A.M.

So…………last night

Last night was not a good night for me because of nightmare is the Laura I had three different nightmares. And they were not all the best things to have last night as you’re going to tell one was PTSD  related the other two I don’t know what was going on with my brain that was. The fact that I couldn’t even write because I was so agitated last night was so aggravating to me. I wanted to start my surfboard that I am riding, but ended up going up in smoke with a nightmare is if you remember reading this from my dream blog that this was the actual demon one. That was pretty bad and now I had to deal with a lot of other different nightmares like I was in the full house, not my favourite show, and then I was in the psychedelic version of bless the Harts, which was kind of screwed up as well until I woke up and about around 9 o’clock. I just finished breakfast because of the damn nightmares I’ve been having and I literally had to wear sunglasses not this one normal glasses translation from Night today because of the damn nightmares I had.

How do you say I would’ve needed this song versus or not need them because of the idea of a sunny super sunny day, which was kind of aggravating to me in the first place I usually don’t mind a sunny day, but in this case when you’ve had three nightmares, you have to wait for the shades in order to just wake up in the morning. This is kind of what I had to deal with. It is a nice day and I took a nice photo of address for you, but that’s what I did, but it’s very interesting that the day there is extremes from this day today and yesterday winter is cold and blustery and rainy, which was not exactly my cuppa tea. I should’ve washed saw movie yesterday because it would’ve been a lot easier on my nerves then going around trying to sleep and having nightmares don’t answer me when I saw movies are soothing to me because of my PTSD maybe it’s because this is just pure make up and other stuff but and I know that it’s gross make up. Where is the news or on the other hand is not make up. I prefer make up over this bowl is there an after what I went through last night? I kinda wanna make sure that I don’t go to that ever again so I’m gonna have a Saw movie. Are you ready? I am not a sociopath or psychopath. I just like horror movies they seem to help me sleep at night because I know they are fake as all. The very nice of the song movies are a lot better instead of having to deal with PTSD nightmares or the goddamn news. I don’t know where I may have listen to the news from but besides the point that’s what caused a lot of my issues, and I was not very happy about that. We’re going back to bed after the first initial night when I choose the half a demon, I wanted to just forget about the past nightmares will continue as I say about the nature of my parents were. They were just not my cup of tea to deal with.

Yesterday I thought I was going to have a good night sleep because it was raining in league. But that’s what I had to deal with the rain and other stuff. When I realized that I was able to take good pictures with my Samsung and I ended up trying with some different raindrops which I did hear. But it’s very interesting to see how clear they turned out though I try to take a picture of my septum piercing, which was supposed to be a little bit more obvious when the drops and the septum piercing is not turn out, as well as the raindrops as far as picture taking always concerned, which was a pain in my ass. But besides the point, I got a nice picture of the raindrops. Which are very interesting and I’m going to make some artwork out of that later today. I don’t know how I’m gonna do it, but I will try my darndest to do it. That being said, I also I’m in a good mood despite the fact that last night was god-awful. When I realized that I can wear sunglasses and then transition to my normal glasses after I get used to the sun light after a bad night I am able to realize that things were a lot easier . I’m also speaking of septum piercing I am now at one squirt a day for my nose, and I never have to and pretty soon after a week or two I don’t have to squirt my nose anymore. Hopefully.  I am able to bob myself in the nose without of course, translate, without any kind of wincing or anything, which is pretty good if I ever had any pain level with my nose, it would’ve been at least .5 or at least I wanna feel something, but not a full on one or two. What I found is the tattoo artist when I did my neck tattoo compare me to 400 pound guy who would faint at the thought of the neck tattoo and then when I went to the piercer the same thing you’re much tougher than a 400 pound guy who will faint at the side of a septum piercing, and I will let you know something. I am just about water, 90 - 110 lbs soaking wet, which was interesting. That guy for time is my Way would end up saying thing at the start of a simple septum piercing or a simple tattoo which is kind of sad for that man that is bad for me. I’m able to do what I can without fainting.   I think big things come in small packages and that’s how I was tired and grade nine science class, when I was a learning about the samurai sword other stores around there that’s when I realize that I had an advantage, and I didn’t think I had that advantage over my other much bigger people that were around me the normal people that were kind of driving me nuts in the first place.

So for my morning, I’m just gonna go on the side watch cobra Kai, which is my favourite show except for the John Kreese guy who creases need to no end.   See October 22, 2023 p.m. To read up on what I think about John Kreese. I know he’s a fictional character but he’s a pain in my Patonia.

One morning I took a picture of the Halloween decorations in my room in Home. This is what I came up with as my hard work. It took a lot of blending and a lot of battery power on my Apple pad. That was my favourite picture ever because it took 27 minutes 55 minutes to get to finish it. I like Halloween as my time of year but since the advent of the nightmares last night, I am wondering if I should switch holidays but anyways, this is a good picture I took of the Halloween decorations which I’m very happy about that very cute. I should have these out of every corner of my room because of the Jets this year amount of nightmares I’ve been having lately. I would say I would need to see a psychiatrist for my PTSD and maybe that’s true but I don’t think anything else is gonna help. Bad word New Age stuff. 

That being said, I think my PTSD is getting out of control again with at least the nightmares. And I would like the nightmares the quiet. The only way I can do is either walk a horror, movie, or to go and lab about my nightmares. Both I have done already. And I am still stupid about the nightmarish. Let’s just say yesterday I did something a little goofy with caffeine intake and ended up having the nightmares Lester say pumpkin spice and ptsd medication do not mix together. They act like a well that was just got off last night but anyways, I’m lucky to be alive. I’m happy to be alive or not dying from a dream.

I am looking forward to the rest of the day. I’m looking forward to riding more about my day. That being said I’m going to continue drying I hopefully not Halloween my way. Maybe the above forementioned raindrops and I was doing all the picture that I just took of the sunny day. Something else bit more positive instead of a bunch of jack-o’-lanterns..

I am looking forward to a good nights sleep, or at least a good nap. At least for that.