November 11, 2023 P.M.

Fever dream high in the quiet of the night
You know that I caught it
Bad, bad boy
Shiny toy with a price
You know that I bought it

Killing me slow, out the window
I'm always waiting for you to be waiting below
Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes
What doesn't kill me makes me want you more

And it's new, the shape of your body
It's blue, the feeling I've got
And it's ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
It's cool, that's what I tell 'em
No rules in breakable heaven
But ooh, whoa oh
It's a cruel summer
With you

Hang your head low
In the glow of the vending machine
I'm not dying
You say that we'll just screw it up in these trying times
We're not trying

So cut the headlights, summer's a knife
I'm always waiting for you just to cut to the bone
Devils roll the dice, angels roll their eyes
And if I bleed, you'll be the last to know

Oh, it's new, the shape of your body
It's blue, the feeling I've got
And it's ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
It's cool, that's what I tell 'em
No rules in breakable heaven
But ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
With you

I'm drunk in the back of the car
And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)
Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true
I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)
And I screamed for whatever it's worth
"I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?
He looks up grinning like a devil

It's new, the shape of your body
It's blue, the feeling I've got
And it's ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
It's cool, that's what I tell 'em
No rules, in breakable heaven
But ooh, whoa, oh
It's a cruel summer
With you

I'm drunk in the back of the car
And I cried like a baby coming home from the bar (oh)
Said, "I'm fine, " but it wasn't true
I don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you
And I snuck in through the garden gate
Every night that summer just to seal my fate (oh)
And I screamed for whatever it's worth

Also, I was making some art. I couldn’t help but make art today. One of them will be a tattoo piece from my right forearm. That being said, I will tell you what that one is the stone cairn one! I am been doing a lot of different marches for artwork today because of the fact that it was remembrance Day. It was just out of respect for the soldiers, or not exactly remembrance day related artwork, but they are certainly not cramped as I followed through with my promise that I wasn’t gonna do any equipped until the end of the day. Just to help be respectful to the people who had served for our country so I’m not just tell you a few things about the artwork I’ve done couple of them might be tattoos. A couple of them might not be but they’re actually pretty Interesting, some of them are fanart. Some of them are just winter seeing that done in my life! These are the artwork that I did. Miscellaneous artwork, if you would say.! I am very happy about the artwork. I’ve done for the day. But I will be doing a Cryptid later.! Also, I need to get back into my crypt blog as well crypt meaning monster cryptocurrency that’s a pile of bull sh*t! That being said, I am very excited about the artwork. I’ve done today, but will do a real super Duper Crypt later on in the day. I just hope that’s a nice staff. Doesn’t mind me staying up a little later than usual. I’ll explain certain things of these artwork that I’ve done in the inspiration behind them!

I also did a character of the new sensor of cobra Kai, which would’ve been Johnny Lawrence had it not been for the John Kreese coming back. This is a picture of Johnny Lauren. We all know who Johnny Lawrence is. He was the one who lost to Danny LaRusso and the karate kid movies. Because of a certain kick he did the crane technique. This is why I enjoy watching the cobra Kai because it’s about mindfulness and anger management. something that I am still working on this days anger management, as well as the idea of mindfulness. Sometimes it gets and sometimes it slips away from me. But anyways, this was a tribute to cobra Kai as the show! I started watching this about two or three years ago when I was angry and found out that there are simple ways to go about the anger without losing your crap or ending up doing anything ridiculous more of them, being the idea of cleaning to train your body, and your mind is very interesting on the last. And I’ve been called mentally strong, as well as physically strong for someone with my condition, that being post traumatic stress disorder you think I would be sniffling, but I’m not. But instead I decided I create or I cleaned to keep the stuff out of my head bad stuff that is like flashbacks past your name anything that’s negative I just save it up for when I do my cleaning job or when I do some creative like when I do a Cryptid and stuff that kind of thing I just save my anger and just let it out that way instead of just being a destructive and stuff is kind of ties into the insane clown idea about being creative instead of feeling, sorry for yourself, and being detrimental to society ! Only one deals with clown. The other deals with martial arts is kind of interesting, that same message And conveyed, but a different story When I ended up drawing it was when I was a little kid that’s what started me on drawing, and it helped soothe whatever the night terrors were that I was having as a kid as well as they were also helping The actual PTSD symptoms that I did not know I had at the time I was just four years old but I had a memory that was like an elephant still do I can still remember when I broke my clavicle which was the left collarbone. January 21, 1999 at 12:40 p.m. it was not exactly my cup of tea, If I remember correctly that was caused by a bully who thought it was fun to push two girls down on the same crazy carpet those things are dangerous!

This was a drawing of a beacon tower in western China, or east Turkestan As it is called or Jean. This place has always been very interesting to me because I’ve had my first past life, flashback not to be misconstrued with A PTSD flashback which is always negative a past life flashback can be a positive thing they’re just memories where you end up having dreams or memories of a past life or past reincarnation if you will. The very first one was a Han dynasty Uighur Princess, who was living near the Beacon tower at the time that being said, it was very interesting to have the past life flashback that one was when I was three years old at The tender of three I ended up having my past life flashback before I ended up with my first PTSD flashback. This was a long before I ended up doing anything with meditation or mindfulness. Usually takes years to get your first past life flashback by this case it didn’t take very much for me. I guess there’s something in the air with me that causes me to have them without meditating or doing mindfulness, which is kind of strange, to be honest with you! Surprisingly, I haven’t started meditating until I went to the group that I am in. Ever since I’ve been in the group home that I am now, I’ve been meditating a lot. Or doing some kind of mindfulness. That being said, it molest coiled the past life, flashbacks, and help me move on from them, but I do have the odd dream about another life that I had another body. That being said, that sounds very, strange but isn’t it is what it is the body goes, but the spirit goes into another body for another hundred years or however, long that he life is and then it goes and it continues onto the next life and the next life until you reach enlightenment Which is basically the whole idea of being free of suffering and free of any atrocities being happened. Also, when you reach the state you also have many past life memories. Which is kind of strange for me because I don’t I made it to enlightenment yet if I did, I would be in the ground by now once you hit that stage here, kinda going to go in the ground that usually how it goes when you achieve that your body decides to give up on you and you’ve learned everything you can only learn so much!  

This is the one tattoo designed for my right inner Forearm, which is basically on my right bicep, which is a stone cairn! They usually use for people who have died and you can’t bury the body or you can and you don’t want to use a headstone that you use in Asia. As a way of Mark, and grave, or marking away of going somewhere. Or where someone had passed away this is interesting to me because I find Kyron so interesting As form as I created so many for the sake of art as well, I’ve created some for memory of people that had passed away. I.e. my mother, my friend, and soon enough, my father. Not rushing it, but it will come sooner or later, and I will not be able to go to his funeral because of idiot sons Ridiculous and who is ridiculous to begin with. He is completely different story and a piece of work. That being said, that’s why I do cairn because I don’t believe in funerals, as well as I believe in sprucing off a place as well with him.  Cairn are very interesting. They started in central Asia made their way to bed, and then the breads and then made their way here as a shucks. Shucks are used for finding away where you’re going like aridiculous and who is ridiculous to begin with. He is completely different story and a piece of work. That being said, that’s why I do cairn because I don’t believe in funerals, as well as I believe in sprucing off a place as well with him. Cairn are very interesting. They started in central Asia made their way to bed, and then the land breads, and then made their way here as an shucks. And shucks are used for finding away where you’re going like a landmark. And are very interesting to me, but I would not be able to create one because they are very heavy. I am pretty strong, and I am very VERO and very potent as a person, but I can only take so much way as well. I can do a lot of things, but if I got the wrong rock, I would end up with a back that would be singing for days. I don’t exactly intend on having a singing back or hurting back. I remember last year I had RSV and my ribs were singing for a few goddamn mines, and a few goddamn lines for me until the end of the summer, which was a real pain in my rib! So that being said, I don’t enjoy the idea of pushing my limit, especially in this time of day and age, where there’s so many viruses that can come about and bust your ribs!   So I just be very careful with the rocks that I choose! These clients can come in so many different varieties as I said there’s a knock and other things then there’s the other stuff like I don’t know how to spell so try not to be upset anyways that’s basically why I ended up doing Kyran to say well someone had died here someone had passed away, and someone is in my memories!

This one will be a tattoo design!

This is basically a winter scene there was inspired by my old Facebook profile picture. I had a abandoned that profile picture years ago because of certain issues that was going on unless you said I used to have a lot of difficulties online with stocker scammers, and the bunch that you don’t wanna deal with. That being said, I’ve been very interested in making it thing similar to this where there’s a lot of different sticks in the snow and I made them blossom with cherry blossoms because that’s why my favorite Flowers other than the poppy ! That being said, I also enjoy spring, as well as the melting snow that comes about, but I did this in midwinter. This takes place in midwinter this actual picture if you want I just made a little weird to make it more attention grabbing. I also believe that even in death, there is life. That being said, I believe that in winter, there can still be life. Just have to look for it just like with, the D word! When I ended up drawing this, I actually was surprised that it was turning out just beautifully and I was going about seeing what I can do with the actual artwork. It is very simple and very simplistic, but it is what it is. It is simple time of year winter, except one of your then that’s kind of a different story if you’re driving winter is not a simple time of year. But if you’re just going around looking at the snow and how is sparkles and stuff in the sticks that used to be tree sticking out then yes it is pretty simple because it is simple to just look at a pile and say well that looks beautiful and nice. That being said, I am very interested and seeing what winter has to offer. Pretty soon I’m gonna have to think about Christmas now because the Remembrance celebration is over or ceremony I should say is over so I think about Christmas once that’s over with and winter. Now let’s bring on winter and let’s see what I can do to me! The only thing with winter I’m planning on not getting sick, Either with RSV or Covid I’d rather not deal with neither one of them. That being said, I hope this is a good and fruitful winter!