Saturday, October 21, 2023

About me

 Hello there my name is Elena Melanson or Elena Ioana Melanson if you’re wondering why I use that name, well, it’s my legal name. My name is Elena Ioana melanson, I was born in Romania and left for dead many years ago when I was just a baby 34 years ago on February 4 that was my birthday, and I was left for dead for two years until I was adopted a large traumatic thing that happened to me when I was younger, particularly there was a lot brutality in Opression. This kind of thing was not something I wanted, even though I was a baby. Do you not start this bullshit about children not being able to understand what’s going on around them when they are just babies babies do have brains and they know how to use them and they’re not stupid. That being said when I was adopted, I was out of that bad situation. If you were to call it the Apple I ended up with PTSD, Asperger’s and ADHD from the whole shit show that was my life up till two years to months. When I made it to Canada, I thought I was safe until my parents drop me off at daycare. That was the biggest mistake of their life. I think. Because I thought I was into deep again, and I didn’t want to deal with kids my age. When I went to school, it was a Catholic school. It was a horrible place for me because the teachers were prejudiced against how intelligent I was not being sarcastic but I actually truthful I was always being targeted because I was girlfriend full of energy and full of intellect and the school did not like that soon enough that I was getting bullied by my friends who were really shitheads to begin with. I learned to read at age 4 before school and I was able to write pretty quickly with some practice after I wanted to school and then I ended up graduating from grade 8 with no honours or anything with you it’s kind of a pain in the arse but then I ended up graduating high school with honours and with an award. That was pretty good . That being said, I am an artist, author, musician, and photographer. I like to do a lot of interesting things. This is what I enjoy doing it designing my own tattoos., getting sad, tattoos done and getting piercings professionally done, of course and having coffee reading and writing. This is where I end up talking about my pen name is Elizabeth Saturn, Nygvik Nomza, and Eleanor a fox stars.   I am currently writing on her my legal name which is Elena Ioana melanson.

I write because I have PTSD as a manager not just from the war zone that I was born in but also because of the sheer amount of bull crap I had to deal with her BS that I had to deal with in school Catholic school to be honest with you what is not exactly my parents High Point in their life. But they’ve done some good things to make up for it like taking me on trips almost around the world except at Asia. They had something against Asia but then they ended up adopting an Asian girl particularly me, so that’s kind of strange. I have three brothers, Mark John, and some other asshole. I’m not gonna mention excuse my language is there, but that is the truth. The other one was trying to hurt me in someway and was not a very good person. That’s why I’m trying to figure out my life right now after that. Also, I was in an abusive relationship about 10 months ago when I was just in the age and 33 it was pretty awful for me to deal with when I broke up with a guy at age 34 he ended up , hating me for everything and threatening me with even more abuse. His name is Brian Werner. He was a horrible human being, but anyways not too much about that. I will block more about that later, but anyways, I also have a good friend named janara. Also, I have friends in my group home I live in a group home because of my PTSD and Asperger‘s and the severity of the PTSD has made sure that I live in a group home for quite some time, and to be on disability for quite some time I wish I wasn’t because I have an IQ of 196 and I feel that being on disability is an affair for me, so this is kind of a fuck up in my life is a disability part I want to take the money from someone that actually needs it, where is that? I can actually get a fucking job and do something with my life but for some odd reason there’s something holding me back and this is why I am blogging to know what is holding me back. It is most likely PTSD that is holding me back. There is a safety issue with me trying to get a job elsewhere. If I were to get another job, I would be  a tattoo artist, and I will be where I know best of the perth  ink witch Emporium because I trust these people nachos with the safety of my body, but also with the safety of my mind as well if I were to work there.   Right now I’m just trying to work on my artwork and trying to do better with my artwork. It doesn’t take very much longer but it will get to the point where I’ll go to an apprenticeship and I’ll be able to be a tattoo artist and may be a pier sure, I’m hoping that one day that I am able to get off the disability though because I kind of find that it’s unfair that I should be on disability want my IQ is through the roof and someone else who is more deserving of it doesn’t have it it’s kind of bad.  That was my mothers second biggest mistake was to put me on odious P when I really have a intelligence of a elephant or iPad or whatever that is fire marshal faster here than any human. I don’t like to brag about my brain, but that is what it is, if I remember when I was a baby, I’m pretty damn intelligent so that being said, don’t put me on disability again mom .

Last year my mother had passed away after my brother trying to hurt me and that being said I was distraught and still, I am to this day a little distraught with the fact that my mother had passed away now I make stone cairns all over the group home that I live not just for my mother, but also for fun, they’re usually use for funerary purposes, but in some cases are use for our order that I use mine for our order goes well for the most part. My father and I never got along so that’s one thing you must know is that I want to be father Bashan, and my aunt she is something else a real psychopath. 

That being said, is important to enjoy life as it is and that’s what I’m trying to do. I will try to maintain this blog as much as possible and this is what I am trying to deal with is some time to myself. To do the maintaining of the blog.

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